Dream: Violent Wedding

In the dream, we were getting ready for Rebecca’s wedding.  I had this dream some time after her  real wedding.  All the characters of the dream except maybe three, including myself, were female.  The males were myself, Navin, and at least one other.  The females included, obviously, Rebecca, Tanneese, possibly Markeisha, and many others.  The dream started out happy.  I was friends with everyone and we were getting along nicely.  I do not know what started it but there began to be conflict between the females and me.  I had a heated exchange with one of them which ended with me striking her.  This angered the other females and started arguments between them and me, usually ending violently.  I remember having a conversation with one girl alone.  Apparently we were pretty close.  We often talked with each other while holding each other.  We were usually playful with each other, somewhat like a sibling relationship.  This time, we were quite serious.  I was expressing how guilty I was feeling, how I hated what was happening to me and that I could not control my anger.  Apparently she was angry with me but was trying not to show it.  We did, however, eventually get into an argument.  I remember feeling the heat building up.  I lost myself, like I was in some kind of trance.  I did not see her; I was just consumed by my anger.  When I eventually calmed down I saw her and she was either angry or afraid, I cannot remember.  I discovered I had hit her.  I think I might have fled the room.  I remember moping around the building after that, feeling guilty and angry with myself.  Some time before that, possibly amongst the violent episodes, possibly before, there was an intimate encounter with the girl that might be Markeisha.  It might have actually been the instigating event.  I have no idea why, but I was in the shower with her and it seemed platonic, which makes no sense to me.  I have a feeling the others, including Tanneese, knew we were showering together and were ok with it.  Eventually, however, it grew intimate and we French kissed.  I vividly remember the feeling of my tongue in her mouth.  While we were kissing, Tanneese walked in.  We stopped just in time for her to see us putting our tongues back in our mouths.  I remember the feeling of our tongues still being interlocked after our lips were apart.  We looked at her shamefully for a while.  That is the last I remember of that scene.  I should point out that while I think the girl is Markeisha, she looked nothing like her.  The last scene I remember is getting ready to go to the wedding.  I was wearing a white dress shirt and a black suit.  My vest and pocket square were gold and silver striped and my tie was gold.  I needed something upstairs where Navin was.  When I got to the room, Navin told me he was on my side.  He pointed out that they had all hit me first.  I hadn’t realized this.  In my guilt, I had only dwelt on my actions.  And due to my incoherence, I may not have even noticed them hitting me.  When he pointed it out, however, I suddenly recalled them all striking me.  This made me feel a little less guilty but I was still upset with myself for hitting females.