15/11/10
This dream only seemed to have one scene. Throughout the whole dream we were at some sort of school. The first place I remember being is in a classroom. It was white and had big windows. I think we were on the 4th floor of the building. There were desks arranged in the same manner as my class with Jasmine Langley at Wilde Lake, with four desk pointed at each other in a spiral-like fashion. The desks were pointed clock-wise. I remember being there for a while but I only remember one part of it. I was with some friends I don’t know in real life. Two of them might have been my Dream Girl and my Dream Best Friend, but I’m not too sure. It seemed as if The Girl was going out with either him or me but it could’ve been neither. I remember at one point we were all joking around and another time, we were taking a test. I remember The Girl sitting on my lap during the test which I found a little strange. She was to my right and my arm was around her. I remember trying to reach around her to write on my test paper. I failed. I don’t know why I wanted to do that. I find it interesting that nothing im0possible ever happens in my dreams. Anyways, we were so close that our cheeks were touching and I kept thinking we were going to get in trouble for cheating or something. I also remember the room being dark during the test. I don’t remember when the test ended but the next thing I remember is us joking around again in the classroom. The Friend was in the desk facing me. I think he sort of looked like Dynza but he sounded nothing like him. The Girl was sitting on his lap now.
The next thing I remember is being downstairs with my friends and some little kids. We were technically outside the building. The building’s 2nd floor and up were wider than the first floor and where the 2nd floor ended were white, square columns. We were under the 2nd floor. The ground looked like cement and outside the columns was soil. There might’ve been gardens out there. There were broad trees with dark, twisted wood everywhere outside. There were white flowers; I think they were in baskets, hanging from the ceiling. I was playing with the kids down there. They seemed to be 6-10 years old, all of them boys. I think the school had an elementary school as well as the college classes. There was one kid that showed up that everyone was afraid of, including some, if not all of my friends. He started bullying the other kids. I stepped in and stopped him. I think my friends were telling me not to. I remember holding him upside down by his ankle. When I put him down, he said he’d get me back and ran away.
I decided to walk one of the kids home because he was afraid of The Kid. I remember the path being made of brown pebbles, lined with those trees on either side. The Kid was there, taunting us, very afraid of me, speaking to us from a distance. I wasn’t taking his threats seriously, just joking around with him the whole time. I remember us passing food stands along the way like we were at an amusement park. The Kid, said something to me with a mischievous grin. I can’t remember what he said but I was really frightened. In my head I saw all sorts of disasters that happened in previous dreams. I told the kid to go home without me an ran back towards the building where my friends were. I kept wondering if I was going to die. I think at some point I thought, If I’m going to die today, I want to spend my last moments with Those Two. When I was close to the building, I got this feeling that something was going to happen. I stopped running. I thought the building was going to explode. I saw something fly up in the corner of my eye the instant I thought it was going to blow. I think I heard someone yell porn. I then saw a line of people going into the building and I knew there was some sort of porn sale or something going on inside. In my head I could see what was going on inside. I saw pole dancers and girls in lingerie handing out stuff. I thought to myself, This is The Kid’s great revenge? What a loser. I also thought that maybe this would damagte my relationship with The Girl if she thought I had anything to do with this. As I considered that I imagined her up there complaining about it. That also makes me think she might’ve been my girlfriend.
Anyways, I just wondered around outside a while. Then I noticed another line leading to a chicken stand. I was hungry but the line was extremely long. Then some white guy with white hair and sideburns in a light grey suit yelled out in a pastor-like manner that he had lost his IPad. Continuing speaking in this manner, he asked who had picked it up. He said that whoever had it would be blessed because he had videoes of sermons on the Ipad. He said that the person who had could keep it, he just wanted to know who it was. He then picked up a drumstick from the stand and, I think, offered everyone free chicken as he handed it to someone in line. I was wondering if he could do that but everyone was getting some and the line was shrinking fast so I got in line. He was still asking about the identity of the thief. I thought to myself that this must just be a ruse and that the thief was going to be punished if he owned up to it. One person in the front of the line admitted that he took the Ipad and I thought to myself, What a sucker. Then I woke up.
As I look back, I feel like The Girl seemed rather Lifa-ish in her behavior, but I might just be imagining things I think she had dark skin and very black hair. She was extremely skinny though. The fact that I can recall so many of their features makes me think that Those Two were not my Dream Girl and Dream Best Friend, however, their relationship with each other and with me is very similar to My Best Friend. And throughout the entire dream, it was obvious that the dream was about Them.
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Dream: The Cat Store
November 1, 2010
The first thing I remember in my dream is driving with Khalil. I had asked him to take me home but stop at the cat store on the way cuz I was gonna get a cat. We were driving down my dream street. We turned in by where the fast food place and food stands usually are. There was a big thing that looked like a carpet rack out in front. Before I got out of the car, I wondered, why am I getting a cat? Will my parents allow it? Can I afford to feed it? But I decided to get one anyways, mainly because I was already there. Khalil waited in the car as I went in. When I went in, I remembered that I wanted to get some kind of rope or something, I can't remember exactly what I wanted or why I wanted it. I saw some stuff like what I wanted. I decided to look at the cats first though. I couldn't find them. I went everywhere in the store and saw no cats. When I first walked in, I saw cat food behind the register on the wall, but after I fruitlessly searched for the cats, the wall was bare. The store no longer had anything to do with cats. I saw a bunch of tassels though. Eventually I also saw graduation gowns. Actually, during my search for the cats, I went into a big room that had a whole bunch of feminine stuff and I felt like I wasn't supposed to be in the room. When I walked out, I saw a picture of a girl, like the one on girl's bathrooms, and a sign saying changing room. Anyways, there were a lot of glass cases that weren't there when I first walked in. They all had things like tassels and graduation caps and gowns. I decided to look for a substitute for whatever type of rope I had wanted. I was looking at their cords. It had been a long time so I was worried about keeping Khalil for too long. Then some "Thugs" walked in the store. I can't remember what happened while they were there. The next thing I remember is going to buy some cord. It was behind the glass so I took the board with the colors on it to order from the register. The guy said that because it was adventist it was old and they don't use it anymore but he'll work something out. I didn't know what he meant by that but he gave me some cords that was so small and wrapped up like guitar strings in a circular package that made it look like a condom. When I was walking up to the register, I was convinced that it cost $4.99 because that's what I read on the board but he charged me $8.99. When I looked at the board again, it said 8.99 which surprised me. I reached into my back right pocket and pulled out all my papers with the dollar bills caught inside and fished for the money. In reality, there are only ones in that bunch but I was surprised to find a twenty, a ten and three fives. I was wondering where all that money came from because I knew that that was more than what I had gotten paid for tutoring but I just dismissed it and paid for the cords. Actually, before I went to buy the cords, I remember going by the window to see what Khalil was doing. It was evening pink outside with the yellow halo off to my right as I looked to the left for the car. I heard Khalil talking to Shevon, however, to my right, out of sight, in front of the door. I heard him say "I soon come". I didn't know if he was talking to me so I just hurried to go buy the cords and was going to hurry back.
When I bought it, though, I went to the room that was the girl's changing room only this time it was MY room. It was much cleaner though. The dresser on the right wasn’t there and there was a small white plastic table at the foot of my bed. The lights were off but it was still pretty bright. When I walked to my bed I noticed that Nat was in there having sex with some girl. He didn’t notice me cuz he was too into it. Nat was in the spot where I sleep and the girl was in the spot where Nat used to sleep and there was none of our stuff on the bed except for a few things at the foot of the bed. I didn’t see the face of the girl. She was in all her clothes still, I could see her black shirt out of the sheets and black pant-legs poking out the bottom of the bed. Nat had a shirt on but everything else was under the sheet, fortunately for me. I was a little weirded out that Nat was having sex where I slept but I dismissed it. I got some things off the foot of the bed and off the table and left. The store had become my house so I walked out into the hallway. I remembered that I left something in the room so I went back. When I got there, both of them were asleep already, which shocked me seeing as I had only been gone for like thirty seconds. I then noticed that the girl was Yanna. It surprised me a little but not too much. She moved and the covers came off her a little so I tried to pull it back over her but Nat was holding it so I gave up. I sat at the foot of the bed to gather my things and when I got up, I covered her feet with the cover and put a pillow under her feet. I have no idea why I put a pillow under her feet but whatever. Then while I was about to leave, Yanna said something to the extent of teasing me because I cared so much for her. I can’t remember what I said in response. She then compared me to some incestuous pedophile who raped his granddaughter. I can’t remember the name she used but when she said the name, I saw his face. He was white and wore a cream mask that covered his eyes up to just above his eyebrows and went slimly down to just below his mouth. She also called me ugly cuz that guy looked like an animal. I joked back saying she was definitely my daughter than cuz she looked like an animal. I don’t know why I said daughter as opposed to granddaughter but anyways. She agreed that she was ugly as usual and I customarily made a disappointed face.
Then Dad walked in the room. He was very fat in the dream; it looked like his belly had a belly. And he was taller than me. He looked very disappointed. He said he had heard noises outside. I went with him to check it out. When we got to the screening area, it was bare and the “thugs” were there throwing a ball against the wall. Dad told me to tell them to stop cuz they were trying to sleep. I told one of them and he asked if Dad said that and I was like I don’t know, cuz that was a pretty stupid question. When I was walking inside, Dad was walking out so they saw him. The “thug” yelled, “Hey, the dude in the orange pants!?” Dad was wearing orange shorts. I was like sure, I guess, still being sarcastic. I thought to myself maybe I should tell him to ask Dad but decided that was too much. But then he came up to my face and said, “Why don’t you go and ask him. I was like, “Nigga why don’t you ask him? What’s wrong witchu? Gonna ask dumb questions and then tell me ta ask him. Man, ask him yourself. The hell wrong with you.” He came up to my face and then walked away. I bust out laughing and told Dad that he was hilarious. He smiled. Then the guy came back and threw a punch which I dodged and then I punched him in his gut. Then I woke up.
The first thing I remember in my dream is driving with Khalil. I had asked him to take me home but stop at the cat store on the way cuz I was gonna get a cat. We were driving down my dream street. We turned in by where the fast food place and food stands usually are. There was a big thing that looked like a carpet rack out in front. Before I got out of the car, I wondered, why am I getting a cat? Will my parents allow it? Can I afford to feed it? But I decided to get one anyways, mainly because I was already there. Khalil waited in the car as I went in. When I went in, I remembered that I wanted to get some kind of rope or something, I can't remember exactly what I wanted or why I wanted it. I saw some stuff like what I wanted. I decided to look at the cats first though. I couldn't find them. I went everywhere in the store and saw no cats. When I first walked in, I saw cat food behind the register on the wall, but after I fruitlessly searched for the cats, the wall was bare. The store no longer had anything to do with cats. I saw a bunch of tassels though. Eventually I also saw graduation gowns. Actually, during my search for the cats, I went into a big room that had a whole bunch of feminine stuff and I felt like I wasn't supposed to be in the room. When I walked out, I saw a picture of a girl, like the one on girl's bathrooms, and a sign saying changing room. Anyways, there were a lot of glass cases that weren't there when I first walked in. They all had things like tassels and graduation caps and gowns. I decided to look for a substitute for whatever type of rope I had wanted. I was looking at their cords. It had been a long time so I was worried about keeping Khalil for too long. Then some "Thugs" walked in the store. I can't remember what happened while they were there. The next thing I remember is going to buy some cord. It was behind the glass so I took the board with the colors on it to order from the register. The guy said that because it was adventist it was old and they don't use it anymore but he'll work something out. I didn't know what he meant by that but he gave me some cords that was so small and wrapped up like guitar strings in a circular package that made it look like a condom. When I was walking up to the register, I was convinced that it cost $4.99 because that's what I read on the board but he charged me $8.99. When I looked at the board again, it said 8.99 which surprised me. I reached into my back right pocket and pulled out all my papers with the dollar bills caught inside and fished for the money. In reality, there are only ones in that bunch but I was surprised to find a twenty, a ten and three fives. I was wondering where all that money came from because I knew that that was more than what I had gotten paid for tutoring but I just dismissed it and paid for the cords. Actually, before I went to buy the cords, I remember going by the window to see what Khalil was doing. It was evening pink outside with the yellow halo off to my right as I looked to the left for the car. I heard Khalil talking to Shevon, however, to my right, out of sight, in front of the door. I heard him say "I soon come". I didn't know if he was talking to me so I just hurried to go buy the cords and was going to hurry back.
When I bought it, though, I went to the room that was the girl's changing room only this time it was MY room. It was much cleaner though. The dresser on the right wasn’t there and there was a small white plastic table at the foot of my bed. The lights were off but it was still pretty bright. When I walked to my bed I noticed that Nat was in there having sex with some girl. He didn’t notice me cuz he was too into it. Nat was in the spot where I sleep and the girl was in the spot where Nat used to sleep and there was none of our stuff on the bed except for a few things at the foot of the bed. I didn’t see the face of the girl. She was in all her clothes still, I could see her black shirt out of the sheets and black pant-legs poking out the bottom of the bed. Nat had a shirt on but everything else was under the sheet, fortunately for me. I was a little weirded out that Nat was having sex where I slept but I dismissed it. I got some things off the foot of the bed and off the table and left. The store had become my house so I walked out into the hallway. I remembered that I left something in the room so I went back. When I got there, both of them were asleep already, which shocked me seeing as I had only been gone for like thirty seconds. I then noticed that the girl was Yanna. It surprised me a little but not too much. She moved and the covers came off her a little so I tried to pull it back over her but Nat was holding it so I gave up. I sat at the foot of the bed to gather my things and when I got up, I covered her feet with the cover and put a pillow under her feet. I have no idea why I put a pillow under her feet but whatever. Then while I was about to leave, Yanna said something to the extent of teasing me because I cared so much for her. I can’t remember what I said in response. She then compared me to some incestuous pedophile who raped his granddaughter. I can’t remember the name she used but when she said the name, I saw his face. He was white and wore a cream mask that covered his eyes up to just above his eyebrows and went slimly down to just below his mouth. She also called me ugly cuz that guy looked like an animal. I joked back saying she was definitely my daughter than cuz she looked like an animal. I don’t know why I said daughter as opposed to granddaughter but anyways. She agreed that she was ugly as usual and I customarily made a disappointed face.
Then Dad walked in the room. He was very fat in the dream; it looked like his belly had a belly. And he was taller than me. He looked very disappointed. He said he had heard noises outside. I went with him to check it out. When we got to the screening area, it was bare and the “thugs” were there throwing a ball against the wall. Dad told me to tell them to stop cuz they were trying to sleep. I told one of them and he asked if Dad said that and I was like I don’t know, cuz that was a pretty stupid question. When I was walking inside, Dad was walking out so they saw him. The “thug” yelled, “Hey, the dude in the orange pants!?” Dad was wearing orange shorts. I was like sure, I guess, still being sarcastic. I thought to myself maybe I should tell him to ask Dad but decided that was too much. But then he came up to my face and said, “Why don’t you go and ask him. I was like, “Nigga why don’t you ask him? What’s wrong witchu? Gonna ask dumb questions and then tell me ta ask him. Man, ask him yourself. The hell wrong with you.” He came up to my face and then walked away. I bust out laughing and told Dad that he was hilarious. He smiled. Then the guy came back and threw a punch which I dodged and then I punched him in his gut. Then I woke up.
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Dream: Fighting Spirit
October 22, 2010
My dream had many parts and I vividly remembered a lot of them for a while, but now i only remember a few. In the first one, I don't exactly remember what happened but I remember noticing that I had two extra fingers coming out of my right palm. They felt like they were coming out of the pinky side of the palm but I saw them coming out the right side which is where the index is supposed to be. But interestingly enough, my fingers were switched, my thumb and index were on the pinky side and vice versa. The extra finger that was closer to the inside of my palm was thin but long, almost twice the length of my normal fingers. Not only that but the skin hung off the end of it down almost to the ground and it seemed to be dripping, as if it wasn't skin, but some kind of slime. The other finger was thin but only like three inches long and I don't know if it had bones. I talked to my parents about it, but I can't remember their response. Nat was there too, though I don't know where there is.
Later, I was walking somewhere, I don't know where to or where from, and I was by 595 an University. I turned onto 595 and walked toward the exit to the school campuses. I remember seeing motorcyclists on the road and then I realized I was on a bike. I rode for a while, wondering if I had passed the exit already because it seemed as if I had been riding for like a mile. Somewhere along the road, the highway transformed into a hilly street surrounded by lush green trees and grass. It was like in Maryland. I noticed that some girl was riding with me. We kept riding until the trees stopped and the road ended at the ocean. We were on some sliver of land that on one side was covered with dead birds lying in shallow water. There were what seemed to be police there investigating. The girl that was riding with me conversed with me and we were talking about the one who was responsible for this crime. I pledged to make him pay for this and we set off to find him. I was walking with two females and a male. One of the females was the original girl and I think was some kind of royalty. As we were walking, we seemed to be surrounded by light, I couldn't see anything other than us, not the ground we were walking on or anything. Even we seemed like we were glowing. I don't remember walking in there but were found ourselves in a palace walking towards the throne. The throne was in a corner to our left and to the right of it were two other seats where the top two fighters sat, they might have been the kings bodyguards. The one sitting closest to the king had a long naginata with a thin blade. The other was holding at least 10 different weapons, all of them blunt, like hammers and boken and clubs, and all of them black as was the shaft of the naginata whose blade was red. I and the other male walked up to the thrones, closer to the fighters, I in front of the one with the bludgeons. They taunted us while I had the biggest evil smile ever. The king said something along the lines of us being able to fight them and the two of us immediately jumped on them. I jumped with my knees to my head, my forelegs out forward so that my legs would block any of the bludgeon holder's strikes. He did strike but I placed my feet behind all his weapons before I landed and then planted my feet on the arms of his chair rendering his weapons useless. Unfortunately, from where I was, the blade of the naginata had a clear shot to my balls, to which I said "'Crap." The blade began its journey towards my manhood but just as it touched my pants the king said, "Wait." I was shocked and relieved. The king called my name, which turned out to be something like Sachun or something, and said the bludgeon wielder will be my opponent, calling him by name which was something that started with th. I did a back flip off the chair and walked toward the soldiers who were watching, still grinning from ear to ear. One of them handed me a club-like weapon that looked like a big, black quad mallet. I turned around, surprised to see my opponent wielding only one weapon which was identical to mine. The fighters both were thin, the naginata wielder was tall, and the bludgeon wielder was shorter but slightly built. He swung his club around doing fancy moves, which I thought were just to intimidate but then he hit me. I was like, we started already? I then got ready to block his next strikes but I couldn't tell when he was going to strike because he kept swing it around in strike-like motions. I blocked some but a few got to me but they weren't that hard. I, feeling confident, spun around and launched an upward strike to hi back, putting all my strength into it. He absorbed it all and didn't even move when I hit him. He just looked at me for awhile. I felt a bit hopeless as we continued to fight. I then started attacking his head, specifically his ears and nose. He was just taking it all. Interestingly enough, at some point during the fight, he had turned into some fat guy, who was still strong and formidable, but rather ugly. Anyways, I stopped attacking him at some point, wondering how my hard hit to his ears and nose weren't effecting him. He said that my strategy was useless and that he was going to show me how to effectively attack. He then swiftly threw a punch towards my ear which I dodged at the last minute. I was very surprised that he would use his fist instead of his weapon and even more surprised that he used my strategy after making fun of it. I then realized that my hits had been affecting him and vocalized my thoughts to him, once again donning my wide grin. I then sent a volley of attacks to my usual targets and all of them were hitting. He threw down his weapon which made me hesitate for a while but then resumed my attacks. He then went towards the door to the kings chambers which was on the wall to the left of the thrones. He stepped inside an said something about always wanting to be where the queen slept and I think she was sleeping in her bed at the time. I don't know why but I decided not to let this filth disgrace the King's chambers and I hooked my club over around his back and pulled him out of the room. He moved around me and was at the end of the door and I was at the other end. I was getting ready to knee him, knowing he was about to bolt in. As I pulled back my right leg, however, he ran straight in. I quickly unleashed my knee, which was so powerful I think it would have killed him, but I just grazed the back of his shirt. He was all the way in the chambers and I was just inside the doorway and was preparing to beat him to a pulp when the light in the kitchen woke me up.
My dream had many parts and I vividly remembered a lot of them for a while, but now i only remember a few. In the first one, I don't exactly remember what happened but I remember noticing that I had two extra fingers coming out of my right palm. They felt like they were coming out of the pinky side of the palm but I saw them coming out the right side which is where the index is supposed to be. But interestingly enough, my fingers were switched, my thumb and index were on the pinky side and vice versa. The extra finger that was closer to the inside of my palm was thin but long, almost twice the length of my normal fingers. Not only that but the skin hung off the end of it down almost to the ground and it seemed to be dripping, as if it wasn't skin, but some kind of slime. The other finger was thin but only like three inches long and I don't know if it had bones. I talked to my parents about it, but I can't remember their response. Nat was there too, though I don't know where there is.
Later, I was walking somewhere, I don't know where to or where from, and I was by 595 an University. I turned onto 595 and walked toward the exit to the school campuses. I remember seeing motorcyclists on the road and then I realized I was on a bike. I rode for a while, wondering if I had passed the exit already because it seemed as if I had been riding for like a mile. Somewhere along the road, the highway transformed into a hilly street surrounded by lush green trees and grass. It was like in Maryland. I noticed that some girl was riding with me. We kept riding until the trees stopped and the road ended at the ocean. We were on some sliver of land that on one side was covered with dead birds lying in shallow water. There were what seemed to be police there investigating. The girl that was riding with me conversed with me and we were talking about the one who was responsible for this crime. I pledged to make him pay for this and we set off to find him. I was walking with two females and a male. One of the females was the original girl and I think was some kind of royalty. As we were walking, we seemed to be surrounded by light, I couldn't see anything other than us, not the ground we were walking on or anything. Even we seemed like we were glowing. I don't remember walking in there but were found ourselves in a palace walking towards the throne. The throne was in a corner to our left and to the right of it were two other seats where the top two fighters sat, they might have been the kings bodyguards. The one sitting closest to the king had a long naginata with a thin blade. The other was holding at least 10 different weapons, all of them blunt, like hammers and boken and clubs, and all of them black as was the shaft of the naginata whose blade was red. I and the other male walked up to the thrones, closer to the fighters, I in front of the one with the bludgeons. They taunted us while I had the biggest evil smile ever. The king said something along the lines of us being able to fight them and the two of us immediately jumped on them. I jumped with my knees to my head, my forelegs out forward so that my legs would block any of the bludgeon holder's strikes. He did strike but I placed my feet behind all his weapons before I landed and then planted my feet on the arms of his chair rendering his weapons useless. Unfortunately, from where I was, the blade of the naginata had a clear shot to my balls, to which I said "'Crap." The blade began its journey towards my manhood but just as it touched my pants the king said, "Wait." I was shocked and relieved. The king called my name, which turned out to be something like Sachun or something, and said the bludgeon wielder will be my opponent, calling him by name which was something that started with th. I did a back flip off the chair and walked toward the soldiers who were watching, still grinning from ear to ear. One of them handed me a club-like weapon that looked like a big, black quad mallet. I turned around, surprised to see my opponent wielding only one weapon which was identical to mine. The fighters both were thin, the naginata wielder was tall, and the bludgeon wielder was shorter but slightly built. He swung his club around doing fancy moves, which I thought were just to intimidate but then he hit me. I was like, we started already? I then got ready to block his next strikes but I couldn't tell when he was going to strike because he kept swing it around in strike-like motions. I blocked some but a few got to me but they weren't that hard. I, feeling confident, spun around and launched an upward strike to hi back, putting all my strength into it. He absorbed it all and didn't even move when I hit him. He just looked at me for awhile. I felt a bit hopeless as we continued to fight. I then started attacking his head, specifically his ears and nose. He was just taking it all. Interestingly enough, at some point during the fight, he had turned into some fat guy, who was still strong and formidable, but rather ugly. Anyways, I stopped attacking him at some point, wondering how my hard hit to his ears and nose weren't effecting him. He said that my strategy was useless and that he was going to show me how to effectively attack. He then swiftly threw a punch towards my ear which I dodged at the last minute. I was very surprised that he would use his fist instead of his weapon and even more surprised that he used my strategy after making fun of it. I then realized that my hits had been affecting him and vocalized my thoughts to him, once again donning my wide grin. I then sent a volley of attacks to my usual targets and all of them were hitting. He threw down his weapon which made me hesitate for a while but then resumed my attacks. He then went towards the door to the kings chambers which was on the wall to the left of the thrones. He stepped inside an said something about always wanting to be where the queen slept and I think she was sleeping in her bed at the time. I don't know why but I decided not to let this filth disgrace the King's chambers and I hooked my club over around his back and pulled him out of the room. He moved around me and was at the end of the door and I was at the other end. I was getting ready to knee him, knowing he was about to bolt in. As I pulled back my right leg, however, he ran straight in. I quickly unleashed my knee, which was so powerful I think it would have killed him, but I just grazed the back of his shirt. He was all the way in the chambers and I was just inside the doorway and was preparing to beat him to a pulp when the light in the kitchen woke me up.
Dream: Stormy Weather
10/19/10
I just remember the last two scenes of my dream. The first one was in a school. I think it was Piper by name ‘cuz Nat and Portia were there, I think they were practicing with the other singers for something. The school looked like the 200 building on the inside but outside was rails like on the 200 portables. And when I was outside, sometimes the ground would be far down like we were on the third floor, and I could see the other floors below us when I looked over the rail. But other times, from the very same rail, the ground would be right there like we were on ground floor. I remember there was a building out to the right when you looked out the front door. It was tall and I couldn’t see the top because of the roof extending out to cover the walkway. The walkway and the roof covering went all the way to another entrance to the building with a glass wall like the doors from the inside of Piper to where the modules are. And through the whole scene, I was trying to get home but didn’t want to walk because of the very dark and violent looking clouds that hover over us. They seemed to be only about thirty feet over us. At times clouds would speed by just over us. It rained on and off but never very hard. I remember asking Plucky, who was in the building outside a classroom how he was getting home. He pointed to the classroom and I saw Sister Gale teaching a class. I asked if I could ride with him and he nodded. I wandered around waiting for the class to be over. I remember walking out on the walkway and over to the other entrance. It was very dark and scary looking so I didn’t go in and went back through the other entrance.
The next scene was in the sanctuary at Eliathah. I don’t remember the beginning of the scene but I was there playing the piano for a bunch of singers. I was playing songs that were pretty hard and that I don’t know in real life. I knew that I didn’t know them and I for a moment realized I was dreaming. But just as I did, Bryan came and I immediately forgot about the fact that I was dreaming and thought, who’s gonna play what ‘cuz for some reason I knew he was going for an instrument and I didn’t want to stay on piano because they were about to sing Lord You Are Good and I wanted to play the guitar. I decided screw it I’m just gonna take the guitar. But when I got over there, nothing was plugged in and the box wasn’t there and I felt so depressed suddenly. Bryan said it was alright, just play into the microphone. I thought that’s not gonna do much good ‘cuz this is an electric, not an acoustic. But when I played into it, I was disgustingly loud. I wondered if the mic was that sensitive or if I was just playing that insanely strong.
That’s all I remember.
I just remember the last two scenes of my dream. The first one was in a school. I think it was Piper by name ‘cuz Nat and Portia were there, I think they were practicing with the other singers for something. The school looked like the 200 building on the inside but outside was rails like on the 200 portables. And when I was outside, sometimes the ground would be far down like we were on the third floor, and I could see the other floors below us when I looked over the rail. But other times, from the very same rail, the ground would be right there like we were on ground floor. I remember there was a building out to the right when you looked out the front door. It was tall and I couldn’t see the top because of the roof extending out to cover the walkway. The walkway and the roof covering went all the way to another entrance to the building with a glass wall like the doors from the inside of Piper to where the modules are. And through the whole scene, I was trying to get home but didn’t want to walk because of the very dark and violent looking clouds that hover over us. They seemed to be only about thirty feet over us. At times clouds would speed by just over us. It rained on and off but never very hard. I remember asking Plucky, who was in the building outside a classroom how he was getting home. He pointed to the classroom and I saw Sister Gale teaching a class. I asked if I could ride with him and he nodded. I wandered around waiting for the class to be over. I remember walking out on the walkway and over to the other entrance. It was very dark and scary looking so I didn’t go in and went back through the other entrance.
The next scene was in the sanctuary at Eliathah. I don’t remember the beginning of the scene but I was there playing the piano for a bunch of singers. I was playing songs that were pretty hard and that I don’t know in real life. I knew that I didn’t know them and I for a moment realized I was dreaming. But just as I did, Bryan came and I immediately forgot about the fact that I was dreaming and thought, who’s gonna play what ‘cuz for some reason I knew he was going for an instrument and I didn’t want to stay on piano because they were about to sing Lord You Are Good and I wanted to play the guitar. I decided screw it I’m just gonna take the guitar. But when I got over there, nothing was plugged in and the box wasn’t there and I felt so depressed suddenly. Bryan said it was alright, just play into the microphone. I thought that’s not gonna do much good ‘cuz this is an electric, not an acoustic. But when I played into it, I was disgustingly loud. I wondered if the mic was that sensitive or if I was just playing that insanely strong.
That’s all I remember.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Dream: No Kisses
10/11/10
There were many, many scenes to this dream but I only remember one of those in the middle. I was by a van in a parking lot to a shopping center. A lot of people were there. Jhani was close by me. She hugged me, I can’t remember why. Then Lifa came and Jhani started complaining to her about me. She said that she has been trying to kiss me but every time she gets close I move back. I thought to myself, I COULD HAVE BEEN KISSING JHANI! I must have been moving back subconsciously. I’m going to have to do something about that. Then Lifa was like, “But you wouldn’t do that to me would you?” And I was like, “No, of course not.” Then she said, “Well let’s see,” and held my waist and moved in for the kiss. I say ‘moved in’ but what really happened was she jumped in. It was like she teleported to an inch in front of my face. Naturally I was surprised and jumped backwards slightly. I was like Damn! But I wasn’t about to pass up a chance to kiss Lifa so I moved in closer, closing my eyes. I felt our lips touch and thought I’m finally kissing Lifa, . But then Lifa jumped back slightly. I was like Hmm!? I kept on going closer, but every time we touched she moved back. Then the last time, she squealed and stepped back. I was like, “What happened?” She said, “I never said I wanted to kiss you.” I was like, “Oh Damn!” There was another scene I remembered for a while but I lost it.
There were many, many scenes to this dream but I only remember one of those in the middle. I was by a van in a parking lot to a shopping center. A lot of people were there. Jhani was close by me. She hugged me, I can’t remember why. Then Lifa came and Jhani started complaining to her about me. She said that she has been trying to kiss me but every time she gets close I move back. I thought to myself, I COULD HAVE BEEN KISSING JHANI! I must have been moving back subconsciously. I’m going to have to do something about that. Then Lifa was like, “But you wouldn’t do that to me would you?” And I was like, “No, of course not.” Then she said, “Well let’s see,” and held my waist and moved in for the kiss. I say ‘moved in’ but what really happened was she jumped in. It was like she teleported to an inch in front of my face. Naturally I was surprised and jumped backwards slightly. I was like Damn! But I wasn’t about to pass up a chance to kiss Lifa so I moved in closer, closing my eyes. I felt our lips touch and thought I’m finally kissing Lifa, . But then Lifa jumped back slightly. I was like Hmm!? I kept on going closer, but every time we touched she moved back. Then the last time, she squealed and stepped back. I was like, “What happened?” She said, “I never said I wanted to kiss you.” I was like, “Oh Damn!” There was another scene I remembered for a while but I lost it.
Dream: Fire Fight
10/10/10
I don’t remember the beginning of the dream, I think there were at least two more scenes before this one, but I remember being in one of the neighborhoods around Piper walking around. For some reason I had to go into the school. I snuck in and for some reason I had on rollerblades. I was skating around the school, dodging security and, I think, looking for something. I don’t know if I found what I was looking for but I decided to sneak back out. I had already been seen with the rollerblades. The security thought I was a student so he just confiscated the skates and sent me off to class. I didn’t care about the skates so I just was going to leave without them. The problem was, now that I was now a supposed student, I would also be supposedly trying to skip if I was seen. Security was suddenly everywhere. Everywhere I turned there was at least one guard. I can’t remember how I got out but I know I did without any more problems.
Later in the dream, I was in our old neighborhood walking home with a bunch of kids. I think there was going to be a party. The strange thing was, our house was not our house, the Andersons lived there. Not only that but when I went inside, it was like the Severn house. Anyways, we were in there for a while when some kids with guns started some trouble. I can’t remember if they were already there or if they stormed the place. And I can’t remember what they wanted. It seems as if they just wanted to cause mischief for no reason. Everyone was on edge and some were panicking but I was completely unperturbed by they’re presence. Actually, I was wondering if I was going to have to fight them and was thinking rather fondly of that possibility. But then one of them drew a line on some loaf of bread on the table I was sitting at. Then he bit over the line and pieces of the loaf crumbled away. Some girl next to me picked up the loaf and screamed. I looked at it and saw inside one of the holes in the bread a big white spider. I remember shivering and going numb. It jumped on me and I immediately freaked, swatting it off of me and running out of the house as fast as possible. Everyone else was doing the same and it seemed that there were more of the spiders in the house and they were now leaving the house chasing after us. We ran all over the neighborhood and spiders got on me on a number of occasions. I remember wanting to go back to the house because Yanna and Lifa were asleep in there. I was by myself running back to the house, still being attacked by spiders. When I was within eyesight of the house, there was another spider on my leg. I swatted it of and frantically checked my body in case there were more like I always do when I find one on me. Then I decided I was being a little kid freaking out over these spiders. If I was going to be of any help to Yanna and Lifa I was going to have to ignore them. I got in the house and it was empty, except for one other guy who was my partner or something. He told me that someone powerful was coming to the house. I don’t know where we got them from but we were armed with many guns. I can’t remember when the guy came but we were shooting at him from inside the house, sneaking outside for surprise attacks outside the house, being chased by him inside the house, etc. We where everywhere doing everything to kill this guy and nothing was working. He was dressed in all white and had long brown hair. I remember him approaching the door and we unloaded on him through the door and he just absorbed all the bullets. He changed directions, walking to the right of the door instead of towards it, firing at us. My partner got hit but was still engaging him. I ran upstairs to get him from above through a window. I was going to go into Yanna and Lifa’s room which was towards to back of the house but when I got close, I saw a lot of skin and they were moving. I thought to myself I can’t take this so I went to the room closer to the front of the house. It turned out that Kiki was sleeping in there (that room was the one that I slept in in real life). I saw the guy through the window and his head was literally right under the window, he was a giant. I fired at him and when I did, it felt like someone was pulling my hand down to the ground. I fired once and because my hands felt tied down I couldn’t fire again right away. There was no sign of damage to the window, and the shot didn’t make much of a sound at all and I don’t think I was using a silencer. I know I had pointed it at his face but there was not a mark on it. I recovered and unloaded on him. There was noise this time but the window and his face were still unscathed. He started to lift his gun toward me and I turned around and ran for my life. I glanced in at Yanna and Lifa’s room to make sure I didn’t wake them and ran down stairs quietly. My partner was there against the front door bleeding. I ran to the back door to watch for him. When I heard him walking around the corner of the house, whatever I was planning to do left my mind and I frantically ran to the front door, after locking the back door, and got ready to open it. I was going to silently exit the front door when I heard the sound of the back door unlock. I was waiting for the sound when I looked back and saw the back door already open partially and continuing to swing open. I freaked and ran out the door not to silently. While running, I thought to myself, maybe he’ll come after me and leave Lifa alone, but part of me was hoping I wouldn’t have to still deal with that monster. That’s all I remember.
I don’t remember the beginning of the dream, I think there were at least two more scenes before this one, but I remember being in one of the neighborhoods around Piper walking around. For some reason I had to go into the school. I snuck in and for some reason I had on rollerblades. I was skating around the school, dodging security and, I think, looking for something. I don’t know if I found what I was looking for but I decided to sneak back out. I had already been seen with the rollerblades. The security thought I was a student so he just confiscated the skates and sent me off to class. I didn’t care about the skates so I just was going to leave without them. The problem was, now that I was now a supposed student, I would also be supposedly trying to skip if I was seen. Security was suddenly everywhere. Everywhere I turned there was at least one guard. I can’t remember how I got out but I know I did without any more problems.
Later in the dream, I was in our old neighborhood walking home with a bunch of kids. I think there was going to be a party. The strange thing was, our house was not our house, the Andersons lived there. Not only that but when I went inside, it was like the Severn house. Anyways, we were in there for a while when some kids with guns started some trouble. I can’t remember if they were already there or if they stormed the place. And I can’t remember what they wanted. It seems as if they just wanted to cause mischief for no reason. Everyone was on edge and some were panicking but I was completely unperturbed by they’re presence. Actually, I was wondering if I was going to have to fight them and was thinking rather fondly of that possibility. But then one of them drew a line on some loaf of bread on the table I was sitting at. Then he bit over the line and pieces of the loaf crumbled away. Some girl next to me picked up the loaf and screamed. I looked at it and saw inside one of the holes in the bread a big white spider. I remember shivering and going numb. It jumped on me and I immediately freaked, swatting it off of me and running out of the house as fast as possible. Everyone else was doing the same and it seemed that there were more of the spiders in the house and they were now leaving the house chasing after us. We ran all over the neighborhood and spiders got on me on a number of occasions. I remember wanting to go back to the house because Yanna and Lifa were asleep in there. I was by myself running back to the house, still being attacked by spiders. When I was within eyesight of the house, there was another spider on my leg. I swatted it of and frantically checked my body in case there were more like I always do when I find one on me. Then I decided I was being a little kid freaking out over these spiders. If I was going to be of any help to Yanna and Lifa I was going to have to ignore them. I got in the house and it was empty, except for one other guy who was my partner or something. He told me that someone powerful was coming to the house. I don’t know where we got them from but we were armed with many guns. I can’t remember when the guy came but we were shooting at him from inside the house, sneaking outside for surprise attacks outside the house, being chased by him inside the house, etc. We where everywhere doing everything to kill this guy and nothing was working. He was dressed in all white and had long brown hair. I remember him approaching the door and we unloaded on him through the door and he just absorbed all the bullets. He changed directions, walking to the right of the door instead of towards it, firing at us. My partner got hit but was still engaging him. I ran upstairs to get him from above through a window. I was going to go into Yanna and Lifa’s room which was towards to back of the house but when I got close, I saw a lot of skin and they were moving. I thought to myself I can’t take this so I went to the room closer to the front of the house. It turned out that Kiki was sleeping in there (that room was the one that I slept in in real life). I saw the guy through the window and his head was literally right under the window, he was a giant. I fired at him and when I did, it felt like someone was pulling my hand down to the ground. I fired once and because my hands felt tied down I couldn’t fire again right away. There was no sign of damage to the window, and the shot didn’t make much of a sound at all and I don’t think I was using a silencer. I know I had pointed it at his face but there was not a mark on it. I recovered and unloaded on him. There was noise this time but the window and his face were still unscathed. He started to lift his gun toward me and I turned around and ran for my life. I glanced in at Yanna and Lifa’s room to make sure I didn’t wake them and ran down stairs quietly. My partner was there against the front door bleeding. I ran to the back door to watch for him. When I heard him walking around the corner of the house, whatever I was planning to do left my mind and I frantically ran to the front door, after locking the back door, and got ready to open it. I was going to silently exit the front door when I heard the sound of the back door unlock. I was waiting for the sound when I looked back and saw the back door already open partially and continuing to swing open. I freaked and ran out the door not to silently. While running, I thought to myself, maybe he’ll come after me and leave Lifa alone, but part of me was hoping I wouldn’t have to still deal with that monster. That’s all I remember.
Monday, July 26, 2010
Dream: End of the World
25/07/10
Meteors
I don’t remember much of this part of the dream. I was with my brothers on a basketball court. For some reason I fell down and was looking up when I saw a light falling down from the sky. I realized it was a meteor and told Shevon I saw a shooting star. Before he could look though, it hit the ground and I frantically got up and told them we should get out of here. They asked me why and then we saw the explosion. The meteorite hit in the middle of some freakishly large skyscrapers. Interestingly enough they all survived but then they started raining down and the city was completely destroyed. They started falling around us two. They would hit the ground leaving a small fried mark and bounce up and hit it again and destroy the land. We all survived. Some time later we were driving around in the destroyed city. I can’t remember what we did there.
Misunderstanding
Throughout the rest of the dream, we were still in a sort of wasteland. This time it was the Eiliathah crew. I was always close to Lifa, and she kept acting strange towards me. She would look at me so cold and never include me in her conversations and talk about me as if I wasn’t there. Many times, someone would ask her a question and she would be like, “ok, come over here, so Nugent doesn’t hear.” I would ignore her when she said stuff like that and pretend I didn’t hear her whispering when I did hear. The last time, the chick she was talking to asked what was up with her and me, asking why she kept excluding me from everything. She whispered something about me liking someone else, which was very shocking to me. I looked over out of corner of my eye and she was watching me. I instinctively snapped my eyes back but then thought to myself, there’s no use pretending anymore, she saw me. I looked at her, and she said to me with the most hateful look, “to Katiza.” I knew she was talking about my blogs but I was trying to figure out how she could get the name Katiza from Kalifa. I said, “I never in my life wrote anything, ‘to Katiza.’” There was a very long pause as we stared at each other. I don’t remember what immediately followed, but I remember the two of us and some others going to find a computer to see what I really wrote. I had already realized it was a dream when Lifa told me about Katiza and now, at this point, I was imagining how this dream would end. It seemed like she wanted me and was just mad because she thought I was after someone else. But then I thought to myself, “Do I really want to see the end of this dream,” especially after I had become comfortable with not being able to have her in real life. I decided that I’d better not screw myself with more lovely dreams so I forced my way out of the dream and woke up.
Meteors
I don’t remember much of this part of the dream. I was with my brothers on a basketball court. For some reason I fell down and was looking up when I saw a light falling down from the sky. I realized it was a meteor and told Shevon I saw a shooting star. Before he could look though, it hit the ground and I frantically got up and told them we should get out of here. They asked me why and then we saw the explosion. The meteorite hit in the middle of some freakishly large skyscrapers. Interestingly enough they all survived but then they started raining down and the city was completely destroyed. They started falling around us two. They would hit the ground leaving a small fried mark and bounce up and hit it again and destroy the land. We all survived. Some time later we were driving around in the destroyed city. I can’t remember what we did there.
Misunderstanding
Throughout the rest of the dream, we were still in a sort of wasteland. This time it was the Eiliathah crew. I was always close to Lifa, and she kept acting strange towards me. She would look at me so cold and never include me in her conversations and talk about me as if I wasn’t there. Many times, someone would ask her a question and she would be like, “ok, come over here, so Nugent doesn’t hear.” I would ignore her when she said stuff like that and pretend I didn’t hear her whispering when I did hear. The last time, the chick she was talking to asked what was up with her and me, asking why she kept excluding me from everything. She whispered something about me liking someone else, which was very shocking to me. I looked over out of corner of my eye and she was watching me. I instinctively snapped my eyes back but then thought to myself, there’s no use pretending anymore, she saw me. I looked at her, and she said to me with the most hateful look, “to Katiza.” I knew she was talking about my blogs but I was trying to figure out how she could get the name Katiza from Kalifa. I said, “I never in my life wrote anything, ‘to Katiza.’” There was a very long pause as we stared at each other. I don’t remember what immediately followed, but I remember the two of us and some others going to find a computer to see what I really wrote. I had already realized it was a dream when Lifa told me about Katiza and now, at this point, I was imagining how this dream would end. It seemed like she wanted me and was just mad because she thought I was after someone else. But then I thought to myself, “Do I really want to see the end of this dream,” especially after I had become comfortable with not being able to have her in real life. I decided that I’d better not screw myself with more lovely dreams so I forced my way out of the dream and woke up.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Dream: Bright Smile
05/07/10
I don’t remember how the dream started. It was the Eliathah crew again. We went many different places. I remember being in some kind of office, in a house, a big one, in a warehouse or something and on the beach. It seems like all of us were taking part in duties similar to those of my job. The house we were in seems very familiar. It reminds me a bit of the house the Andersons went to in New York from the porch and the inside reminds me of their house. While in the house, at one point I was there with Chad, Bryan and a few others I can’t remember. I was wondering where Lifa was. I don’t recall if it was in response to Yanna walking in and I don’t remember which event came first. Chad noticed me looking around and asked me about it. Bryan made some comment along the lines of me going after one of his sisters. Chad said “Oh really, and asked which one. I jokingly said who knows, implying that it could be Yanna and I think a bunch of them, including Chad, believed the joke, but I just left it alone. In the warehouse, I remember that we all were being trained on how to construct some piece of equipment. I think it was a scanner but it was extra large and had some metal, diagonal piece going across the top which made it look like a guillotine. Throughout the dream, Lifa looked very serious. Usually this would deter me from messing with her but I couldn’t resist the urge. And so I started joking with her, poking her every now and then, etc. Each time I messed with her, she would immediately put on the brightest smile, she looked so beautiful, my whole body went weak. Right before I woke up, we went to the beach. I remember we were in the house and it seems like the house was right in front of the beach. I remember going down the stairs and going through the large glass doors at the back of the house. There was a stretch of grass between the beach and the house, peppered with many boulders ranging from about 3 feet tall to a bit larger than a delivery truck. The grassy part sloped steeply down towards the beach and the rocks served as stairs, or a ladder. I also remember seeing Lifa and Ashleigh on the staircase that I used; only it was by the boulders, outside and alone, leading to nothing but air. Lifa and Ashleigh were together for that whole scene and possibly the whole dream. A number of times during that last scene, I would remember I left something in the house or had to put something in the house. I would always run into them when I went back. I started hearing rumors about me and Ashleigh which made me wonder why everyone found it so difficult to believe that I liked Lifa. On the last encounter with them, Lifa asked me why I kept coming back to them, jokingly asking if I was stalking her. I don’t remember my response but I know we started a little conversation and she once again donned that bright smile. She was sitting on a boulder a bit taller than me and she was wearing a grey dress. She still had the bangs and her short hair was blowing in the wind, partly covering her face. I could see the grey clouds moving behind her as I looked up from where I was standing in front of the base of the boulder. That’s where I was when I woke up. The whole dream was dark, all the walls were dark brown and the lights were yellow. The house appeared light grey at the end of the dream, however, from where I was standing on the beach. I’m starting to think that the dark brown and yellow represent my dark mood. For most of the dream I was feeling depressed and so was Lifa. But whenever we talked, we both would brighten up. The walls seemed less dark, white light shone through the windows, etc. And in the end when we were together, the house completely lost its dark brown color. It bears similarities with The Approach. That dream started out dark brown with my depressed mood and after I talked with Lifa, my mood lifted and I was taken to the all white room with the sun shining through the windows. But it bothers me that I can never remember my conversations with Lifa.
I don’t remember how the dream started. It was the Eliathah crew again. We went many different places. I remember being in some kind of office, in a house, a big one, in a warehouse or something and on the beach. It seems like all of us were taking part in duties similar to those of my job. The house we were in seems very familiar. It reminds me a bit of the house the Andersons went to in New York from the porch and the inside reminds me of their house. While in the house, at one point I was there with Chad, Bryan and a few others I can’t remember. I was wondering where Lifa was. I don’t recall if it was in response to Yanna walking in and I don’t remember which event came first. Chad noticed me looking around and asked me about it. Bryan made some comment along the lines of me going after one of his sisters. Chad said “Oh really, and asked which one. I jokingly said who knows, implying that it could be Yanna and I think a bunch of them, including Chad, believed the joke, but I just left it alone. In the warehouse, I remember that we all were being trained on how to construct some piece of equipment. I think it was a scanner but it was extra large and had some metal, diagonal piece going across the top which made it look like a guillotine. Throughout the dream, Lifa looked very serious. Usually this would deter me from messing with her but I couldn’t resist the urge. And so I started joking with her, poking her every now and then, etc. Each time I messed with her, she would immediately put on the brightest smile, she looked so beautiful, my whole body went weak. Right before I woke up, we went to the beach. I remember we were in the house and it seems like the house was right in front of the beach. I remember going down the stairs and going through the large glass doors at the back of the house. There was a stretch of grass between the beach and the house, peppered with many boulders ranging from about 3 feet tall to a bit larger than a delivery truck. The grassy part sloped steeply down towards the beach and the rocks served as stairs, or a ladder. I also remember seeing Lifa and Ashleigh on the staircase that I used; only it was by the boulders, outside and alone, leading to nothing but air. Lifa and Ashleigh were together for that whole scene and possibly the whole dream. A number of times during that last scene, I would remember I left something in the house or had to put something in the house. I would always run into them when I went back. I started hearing rumors about me and Ashleigh which made me wonder why everyone found it so difficult to believe that I liked Lifa. On the last encounter with them, Lifa asked me why I kept coming back to them, jokingly asking if I was stalking her. I don’t remember my response but I know we started a little conversation and she once again donned that bright smile. She was sitting on a boulder a bit taller than me and she was wearing a grey dress. She still had the bangs and her short hair was blowing in the wind, partly covering her face. I could see the grey clouds moving behind her as I looked up from where I was standing in front of the base of the boulder. That’s where I was when I woke up. The whole dream was dark, all the walls were dark brown and the lights were yellow. The house appeared light grey at the end of the dream, however, from where I was standing on the beach. I’m starting to think that the dark brown and yellow represent my dark mood. For most of the dream I was feeling depressed and so was Lifa. But whenever we talked, we both would brighten up. The walls seemed less dark, white light shone through the windows, etc. And in the end when we were together, the house completely lost its dark brown color. It bears similarities with The Approach. That dream started out dark brown with my depressed mood and after I talked with Lifa, my mood lifted and I was taken to the all white room with the sun shining through the windows. But it bothers me that I can never remember my conversations with Lifa.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Dream: The Approach
April 18, 2010
The first thing I remember is being in a room with the Eliathah group. The room was burgundy and there was a chandelier with dim yellow lights. The room was pretty dark. There was a big table in front of us with a plain cream table cloth and fancy looking cutlery and plates. Bryan, Jay and I were sitting on some chairs against the wall while everyone else was in a crowd to our left. I think they were getting food. I didn’t realize it but Lifa was at the back of the group and so she was standing right by me. Bryan and Jay noticed, though, and Bryan started whispering, Lloyd, talk to her.” He looked so excited and was vigorously motioning with his arms. I was wondering why he would be so open about this with Jay around; I wondered if he knew that I told Jay that I liked Lifa too. I also wondered how I was going to tell him that I wasn’t after Lifa anymore. I made a face and waved my hand to turn down his suggestion. I didn’t look at the two of them again for a while. I figured I probably looked like the biggest punk ever, spouting out how much I’ve wanted her and then turning down a perfect opportunity to talk to her. I kept quiet for a while but I kept growing more and more tempted to say something. I finally gave in and started joking around with her. She had been standing the whole time, even after getting her food. She had put her plate down in the spot on the table right in front of me yet was still standing. When I started talking to her, though, she immediately took the seat right next to me. She seemed so eager to talk to me, like she was standing there just so I would talk to her.
I don’t remember how that scene ends and I know there were many more scenes after that one but I only remember the last one. I was in some sort of cafeteria it seems. There were the benches, which were a cream color, but the room was pretty small. The walls were white as were the lights. I remember the sunlight through the windows; it was like light through fog. And the windows were clear enough to question whether or not they were actually there. I was eating there and then Amankwa sits on the bench across from me. I don’t remember doing it but I think I asked her out and apparently she turned me down because the whole rest of the dream was her insulting me and calling me a loser. The only insult I specifically remember was her calling me a wanabe thug. To all her insults, I didn’t make much resistance. Everything she said was true, a little exaggerated but still true. She said just about everything bad I’ve ever done in my life and mentioned every bad aspect of me that I’ve ever acknowledged. Navin showed up in the middle of it. I told him what had happened so far and he asked me why I wasn’t defending myself. I told him that she was speaking truth. I also remember her telling me to walk the road instead of the sidewalk. I thought that was pretty funny so I smiled and she gave me a disgusted look.
This dream was one of the most vivid that I remember. When I woke and tried to remember the dream, I thought at first that the scene with Amankwa was an actual memory. It was only when I tried to remember when it happened that I realized it couldn’t have happened and it was a dream. Later in the day, my thoughts went to the first scene and I thought that that too was an actual memory and found out that it was a dream the same way. As for the Amankwa scene, it also became obvious that it was a dream when I remembered what she was saying. The Dream Amankwa knew everything about me, about my life in Maryland, about things that happened at Piper, even things that I never told anybody, things that only I know about myself. The scene was very disturbing. It was a bit depressing to hear all my mistakes at one time and hear Amankwa’s negative reaction to them. Unfortunately, the bad feelings of that scene initially overwhelmed the good feelings of the Lifa scene. I wish I remembered the rest of that scene. I feel like it was going somewhere good.
The first thing I remember is being in a room with the Eliathah group. The room was burgundy and there was a chandelier with dim yellow lights. The room was pretty dark. There was a big table in front of us with a plain cream table cloth and fancy looking cutlery and plates. Bryan, Jay and I were sitting on some chairs against the wall while everyone else was in a crowd to our left. I think they were getting food. I didn’t realize it but Lifa was at the back of the group and so she was standing right by me. Bryan and Jay noticed, though, and Bryan started whispering, Lloyd, talk to her.” He looked so excited and was vigorously motioning with his arms. I was wondering why he would be so open about this with Jay around; I wondered if he knew that I told Jay that I liked Lifa too. I also wondered how I was going to tell him that I wasn’t after Lifa anymore. I made a face and waved my hand to turn down his suggestion. I didn’t look at the two of them again for a while. I figured I probably looked like the biggest punk ever, spouting out how much I’ve wanted her and then turning down a perfect opportunity to talk to her. I kept quiet for a while but I kept growing more and more tempted to say something. I finally gave in and started joking around with her. She had been standing the whole time, even after getting her food. She had put her plate down in the spot on the table right in front of me yet was still standing. When I started talking to her, though, she immediately took the seat right next to me. She seemed so eager to talk to me, like she was standing there just so I would talk to her.
I don’t remember how that scene ends and I know there were many more scenes after that one but I only remember the last one. I was in some sort of cafeteria it seems. There were the benches, which were a cream color, but the room was pretty small. The walls were white as were the lights. I remember the sunlight through the windows; it was like light through fog. And the windows were clear enough to question whether or not they were actually there. I was eating there and then Amankwa sits on the bench across from me. I don’t remember doing it but I think I asked her out and apparently she turned me down because the whole rest of the dream was her insulting me and calling me a loser. The only insult I specifically remember was her calling me a wanabe thug. To all her insults, I didn’t make much resistance. Everything she said was true, a little exaggerated but still true. She said just about everything bad I’ve ever done in my life and mentioned every bad aspect of me that I’ve ever acknowledged. Navin showed up in the middle of it. I told him what had happened so far and he asked me why I wasn’t defending myself. I told him that she was speaking truth. I also remember her telling me to walk the road instead of the sidewalk. I thought that was pretty funny so I smiled and she gave me a disgusted look.
This dream was one of the most vivid that I remember. When I woke and tried to remember the dream, I thought at first that the scene with Amankwa was an actual memory. It was only when I tried to remember when it happened that I realized it couldn’t have happened and it was a dream. Later in the day, my thoughts went to the first scene and I thought that that too was an actual memory and found out that it was a dream the same way. As for the Amankwa scene, it also became obvious that it was a dream when I remembered what she was saying. The Dream Amankwa knew everything about me, about my life in Maryland, about things that happened at Piper, even things that I never told anybody, things that only I know about myself. The scene was very disturbing. It was a bit depressing to hear all my mistakes at one time and hear Amankwa’s negative reaction to them. Unfortunately, the bad feelings of that scene initially overwhelmed the good feelings of the Lifa scene. I wish I remembered the rest of that scene. I feel like it was going somewhere good.
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Dream: 7 days dream
March 5-11, 2010
It all started Friday night when I dreamt the Crushing Defeat Dream. Angel was talking about a special kiss with someone special and part of me expected it to be me. When she kissed someone else days later, I was quite devastated. This dream had me in a pretty bad mood Saturday morning. After church, I saw Angel while I was still on stage practicing. I really wanted to talk to her but I couldn’t because of practice so I told myself I’d talk to her when we got to her house. When we got there though, when I got upstairs, I didn’t give her a hug after Bryan did because it felt too unnatural for me. Then while we were eating, I was quiet the whole time, which upset me seeing as she was sitting next to me. I thought to myself, “How can I be right next to her and say nothing? Is this all I am, how far I’ve come? I’m just going to stay an acquaintance forever?” I was ready to accept failure and give up but just before leaving, I went outside to be alone. Then Angel came outside for a while. I messed around with her like everything’s normal, like I’m supposed to, and that boosted my confidence. Then that night and the next night, I had wonderful dreams of being with Lifa. So on Monday, I was once again hopeful. So I wrote the Dream Journal entry about those three dreams but this time, I used Angel’s name instead of hiding her identity. The whole day I was a bit worried about what would happen when people read it but I was a bit exited to have the secret out. That night I had a similar euphoric dream with Lifa and the next morning I went to check my facebook. I found no comments on my blog which upset mea little. I didn’t let it get to me though, so I reposted the link and then left it alone. Later that day, I became pretty active on facebook with the questionnaires. One question was about if I wanted to kiss Angel. I answered it truthfully. I had one last euphoric dream and then Wednesday morning checked my facebook only to be once again disappointed with what I found. Almost everyone except Angel had responded to my posts. Not only did it seem she was ignoring me, but she had her status as the lyrics to some song. Her friend said she knows who she was singing to and that chick doesn’t even know me so I know she wasn’t talking to me. I was so pissed. I really felt like giving up now. I told myself I was just going to finish my songs for her, tell her everything and then go back to being a loner. I walked around for a while outside, thinking about my music when I almost stepped on a butterfly. No butterfly had ever let me get close enough for that to happen. I stooped down to get a closer look at it and even took a few pictures of it. I walked around it until it finally flew away. I was trying to find an analogy with Lifa and the butterfly when I suddenly remembered that I wasn’t even trying to go out with Angel. Why should I care if she likes someone else, it doesn’t change anything. I wondered to myself, would I really be able to be close to her and tolerate her liking someone else. I decided I was sure I could, seeing as I did before. A bit later I began looking back at how foolish I had been lately and I started to wonder how I got here. How did I end up falling for this girl? Well, early the next morning, I woke up and realized I hadn’t dreamt of her. I thought to myself that that was probably good thing and tried to get out of bed. I was way too tired to get up so I just went back to sleep and immediately I went into a dream of Angel. I dreamt that we, the Eliathah Pathfinders and some others including Angel, were at some kind of camp. It was dark throughout the dream and the sky was sunset red with black clouds. At some point in the dream, I had to watch some of the adventurers by myself. I was pretty upset because I wanted to be with Lifa. I tried hard to get out of that responsibility and almost succeeded but then Angel came to help out so of course I stayed. I kept trying to interact with her but the infernal kids kept acting up and demanding our attention. I had another dream after that about us being chased by murderous old people but that is at this point irrelevant. When I got on facebook Thursday morning and checked Lifa’s page, I noticed that she became a fan of “boys sneaking up behind you and hugging your waist.” That reminded me of all the things I had wanted to do with her and even recalled memories of my time with Alicia and how I always either had my plans thwarted or chickened out. I thought of how normal people do that stuff all the time. Why does it seem so foreign and unnatural to me? I felt very helpless and insignificant. But I just distracted myself with my duties. That night I hardly slept and when I woke up, I didn’t recall having any dreams at all. But then, just like the day before, when I went back to sleep, I dreamt of her for the seventh time. We were at what seemed to be a concert in a long building that at some parts of the dream seem to be tent. I was with the Eliathah praise team, though I don’t remember ever performing, and I don’t know if there were any other Eliathah members there besides Lifa and her mom. Amankwa and Tanya were there though. The building/tent was packed; it seemed like a big event. The main part of the dream started after seeing Angel and then feeling the impressive urge to go and tell her how beautiful she was. As I made my way over to her, I bumped into Amankwa and Tanya and I complimented them on there appearances. That started a brief conversation with them that I don’t remember, all I remember is wanting to hurry up and get over to Angel. As I once again searched for her, I ran into Sister K. She had some project for me that she was going to pay me for. I quickly accepted then got back on my sojourn. I was called by my brother and told that we were leaving. As I was walking to the car I met up with Nika and we had a short conversation that I remember enjoying. I find that a bit interesting. I’ve never once before had a dream with both Kanika and Kalifa active characters in it. As we walked to the vehicle I was just hoping that Lifa was riding with whoever we were riding with. She wasn’t in there and the dream ended with me standing next to the car. The whole dream there was a feeling of urgency, like this was a monumental moment. Even now, it feels like there’s something very important that I don’t yet remember, as it took quite some effort and time to remember this dream. When I woke up, I remembered next to nothing about the dream, only that Lifa was in it and that it seemed very important to me. But this week was a very emotional one. And it’s interesting to me that I would dream of Lifa for a whole week straight. That’s never happened to me before, with anyone.
It all started Friday night when I dreamt the Crushing Defeat Dream. Angel was talking about a special kiss with someone special and part of me expected it to be me. When she kissed someone else days later, I was quite devastated. This dream had me in a pretty bad mood Saturday morning. After church, I saw Angel while I was still on stage practicing. I really wanted to talk to her but I couldn’t because of practice so I told myself I’d talk to her when we got to her house. When we got there though, when I got upstairs, I didn’t give her a hug after Bryan did because it felt too unnatural for me. Then while we were eating, I was quiet the whole time, which upset me seeing as she was sitting next to me. I thought to myself, “How can I be right next to her and say nothing? Is this all I am, how far I’ve come? I’m just going to stay an acquaintance forever?” I was ready to accept failure and give up but just before leaving, I went outside to be alone. Then Angel came outside for a while. I messed around with her like everything’s normal, like I’m supposed to, and that boosted my confidence. Then that night and the next night, I had wonderful dreams of being with Lifa. So on Monday, I was once again hopeful. So I wrote the Dream Journal entry about those three dreams but this time, I used Angel’s name instead of hiding her identity. The whole day I was a bit worried about what would happen when people read it but I was a bit exited to have the secret out. That night I had a similar euphoric dream with Lifa and the next morning I went to check my facebook. I found no comments on my blog which upset mea little. I didn’t let it get to me though, so I reposted the link and then left it alone. Later that day, I became pretty active on facebook with the questionnaires. One question was about if I wanted to kiss Angel. I answered it truthfully. I had one last euphoric dream and then Wednesday morning checked my facebook only to be once again disappointed with what I found. Almost everyone except Angel had responded to my posts. Not only did it seem she was ignoring me, but she had her status as the lyrics to some song. Her friend said she knows who she was singing to and that chick doesn’t even know me so I know she wasn’t talking to me. I was so pissed. I really felt like giving up now. I told myself I was just going to finish my songs for her, tell her everything and then go back to being a loner. I walked around for a while outside, thinking about my music when I almost stepped on a butterfly. No butterfly had ever let me get close enough for that to happen. I stooped down to get a closer look at it and even took a few pictures of it. I walked around it until it finally flew away. I was trying to find an analogy with Lifa and the butterfly when I suddenly remembered that I wasn’t even trying to go out with Angel. Why should I care if she likes someone else, it doesn’t change anything. I wondered to myself, would I really be able to be close to her and tolerate her liking someone else. I decided I was sure I could, seeing as I did before. A bit later I began looking back at how foolish I had been lately and I started to wonder how I got here. How did I end up falling for this girl? Well, early the next morning, I woke up and realized I hadn’t dreamt of her. I thought to myself that that was probably good thing and tried to get out of bed. I was way too tired to get up so I just went back to sleep and immediately I went into a dream of Angel. I dreamt that we, the Eliathah Pathfinders and some others including Angel, were at some kind of camp. It was dark throughout the dream and the sky was sunset red with black clouds. At some point in the dream, I had to watch some of the adventurers by myself. I was pretty upset because I wanted to be with Lifa. I tried hard to get out of that responsibility and almost succeeded but then Angel came to help out so of course I stayed. I kept trying to interact with her but the infernal kids kept acting up and demanding our attention. I had another dream after that about us being chased by murderous old people but that is at this point irrelevant. When I got on facebook Thursday morning and checked Lifa’s page, I noticed that she became a fan of “boys sneaking up behind you and hugging your waist.” That reminded me of all the things I had wanted to do with her and even recalled memories of my time with Alicia and how I always either had my plans thwarted or chickened out. I thought of how normal people do that stuff all the time. Why does it seem so foreign and unnatural to me? I felt very helpless and insignificant. But I just distracted myself with my duties. That night I hardly slept and when I woke up, I didn’t recall having any dreams at all. But then, just like the day before, when I went back to sleep, I dreamt of her for the seventh time. We were at what seemed to be a concert in a long building that at some parts of the dream seem to be tent. I was with the Eliathah praise team, though I don’t remember ever performing, and I don’t know if there were any other Eliathah members there besides Lifa and her mom. Amankwa and Tanya were there though. The building/tent was packed; it seemed like a big event. The main part of the dream started after seeing Angel and then feeling the impressive urge to go and tell her how beautiful she was. As I made my way over to her, I bumped into Amankwa and Tanya and I complimented them on there appearances. That started a brief conversation with them that I don’t remember, all I remember is wanting to hurry up and get over to Angel. As I once again searched for her, I ran into Sister K. She had some project for me that she was going to pay me for. I quickly accepted then got back on my sojourn. I was called by my brother and told that we were leaving. As I was walking to the car I met up with Nika and we had a short conversation that I remember enjoying. I find that a bit interesting. I’ve never once before had a dream with both Kanika and Kalifa active characters in it. As we walked to the vehicle I was just hoping that Lifa was riding with whoever we were riding with. She wasn’t in there and the dream ended with me standing next to the car. The whole dream there was a feeling of urgency, like this was a monumental moment. Even now, it feels like there’s something very important that I don’t yet remember, as it took quite some effort and time to remember this dream. When I woke up, I remembered next to nothing about the dream, only that Lifa was in it and that it seemed very important to me. But this week was a very emotional one. And it’s interesting to me that I would dream of Lifa for a whole week straight. That’s never happened to me before, with anyone.
Monday, March 8, 2010
Dream: Crushing Defeat/Paradise
Friday night I had another dream about Angel. I can't remeber how it started but throughout the dream, in every scene Angel was there somewhere. We, the Andersons Nat, Vez and the Fairweathers were hanging out at Chad's house, at Eliathah and some other places I can't remember. There was going to be some event, exactly what I don't remember, but all of us were going and Angel kept talking about it. She was saying something about the man she liked and that she was gonna make a move at the event. She was saying something about a special kiss. Throughout the dream I kept telling myself that it most likely wasn't me and not to get my hopes up but every time she talked about this guy I felt so happy and hopeful. Then at the event, i was there waiting to see who it was, still thinking it wasn't me. there were like three guy sitting close to me watching with me, I specifically remember that Bryan and Chad were two of them. They kept smiling at me, like when someone is about to get a prize but doesn't know it and they're looking at him to see his face when it happens. Some time later she got up and we all knew why. She walked over to Josh's older brother and started making out with him. I had been expecting it to not be me the whole time but it still hurt when I saw it. The pain was excrutiating, I don't remember ever feeling a pain being even close to this. Anyone who says you can't feel pain in a dream is a liar. It hurt so much, I had to get up from where I was sitting, I couldn't watch and I needed to be alone.
Then saturday and sunday night I dreamt about her again, but this time they were good dreams. I don't remember very much about these dreams at all. I just remember the feeling of bliss. I remember us being together, and by together I mean in the same place, throughout the whole of both dreams. Last nights dream was the better of the two. It seemed like we were in another world. What my emotional memories tell me about what happened and what visual memories say don't match at all. I remember seeing us in many different disasters, and then we were just hanging out in some building, nothing special about it. But my emotions during the dream were ecstatic. I can't fully explain it but it felt like I was somewhere else, it felt like I was in some paradise. The feeling seems so familiar to me, but I don't recall having such feeling ever, in the real world or in a dream. But one interesting thing about both dreams is that whenever I would have a moment with Angel, either something in the dream would interupt us or I would wake up before anything could happen. And even more strange is that when I would wake up, I would within seconds go back into the same dream, just nolonger in the same situation with Angel. Its like I was forever prohibited from getting any closer to Angel then friendship.
Then saturday and sunday night I dreamt about her again, but this time they were good dreams. I don't remember very much about these dreams at all. I just remember the feeling of bliss. I remember us being together, and by together I mean in the same place, throughout the whole of both dreams. Last nights dream was the better of the two. It seemed like we were in another world. What my emotional memories tell me about what happened and what visual memories say don't match at all. I remember seeing us in many different disasters, and then we were just hanging out in some building, nothing special about it. But my emotions during the dream were ecstatic. I can't fully explain it but it felt like I was somewhere else, it felt like I was in some paradise. The feeling seems so familiar to me, but I don't recall having such feeling ever, in the real world or in a dream. But one interesting thing about both dreams is that whenever I would have a moment with Angel, either something in the dream would interupt us or I would wake up before anything could happen. And even more strange is that when I would wake up, I would within seconds go back into the same dream, just nolonger in the same situation with Angel. Its like I was forever prohibited from getting any closer to Angel then friendship.
Monday, January 4, 2010
Dream: My Girl and Nat
I only remember one part of this dream. I don't remember where we were but all the people that usually go to Chad's house after church were there. Nat was lying down against a wall and everyone else was around him talking. Then the girl I like lays down on top of Nat. I was kinda upset but I was controlling myself. We talked for a while and I was doing my best to ignore Nat and the girl. The girl and I made contact every now and then and she seemed to be enjoying my pain. Then she started carressing Nat's face and I think she started to kiss him. I couldn't contain my aggravation after that. I started fidgeting and looking anywhere but towards her and Nat. I was talking irregularly too. The whole time I was trying to think up an excuse to leave. I eventually did leave and I could tell that she was enjoying this. While away I calmed myself down and then came back. We talked again for a while and I made eye contact with her for a while and she knew then that it was nolonger affecting me and she looked very disapointed. Then she turned over and started hugging up on him and I think they started making out. After that I didn't look away or anything, I just felt the deepest feeling of hopelessness and despair. That's all I remember of that dream.
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