Dream: My Best Friend

November 02, 2009

I saw my dream girl again last night. But this this time was different from the others. Just like other times we were just messing around the whole time. This time though there was a rapist or something out to get her and we were hiding in some building. In the dream the danger seemed pretty serious but we weren't afraid, we were just happy to be together. And by together i don't mean going out cuase interestingly enough later in the dream, i and someone who turned out to be my best friend were upstairs setting something up (i think it was some kind of trap) and while i was talking to him i realized for the first time in the dream that my dream girl and my best friend were going out. And as i realized this i felt not an ounce of jealousy or hate or sadness, it didn't change anything at all. All i felt was suprise and when we went downstairs, we did what we were doing before, just messing around and having fun, the three of us. As usual, i can't remember my dream girl's face or name. It's a little different with my best friend though. This is the first time i've seen him in a dream and of course he too is nameless and faceless. But unlike my dream girl, it's not that i can't remember his face, i just see a blur. With my dream girl, i keep getting hints of her facial features, it feels like i know it and am so close to remembering it. But with my best friend, i don't have any clue to his appearance. Its like i never knew it. In fact i think even in the dream, i only saw a blur. But as i say that i remember thinking in the dream that he looked just like me. The first time i saw him, i thought i was seeing myself because in many of my dreams, i see the dream not from my own eyes but as an onlooker and i see my body as if i am someone else. So i thought that my best friend was me, and i now recall that he was my height and build, but later realized that it was a different person. Also, my dream girl seems so familiar to me. i actually think that i know her in real life. But my best friend, i don't believe i know anybody that fits his description. He has my build and is as tall as me but he seem to be either white or very light-skinned. I don't have any close friends that fit that description. But i have come to think that unlike my dream girl, who i think is an actual person in real life, my best friend just represents the similarities between me and many of my close friends. In fact, this dream reminds me of my situation with my newest best friend and the girl i liked. It also happened with Natasha and Ricardo and Navin and Gaelle. But with all those relationships, i felt left out and alone, unlike my feelings in this dream. In this dream, i felt so good, it was the best feeling i've ever felt in my life. And also, i now recall that my best friend reminds me most of my best friend Nigel, which is strange becaues Nigel and Natasha are ferternal twins and there wasn't any other girl i like when i was with Nigel that he liked too. And I also find it very strange that my dream girl, that i've been searching for ever since the first time i saw her, that i can so easily give her up and not feel any regret. I also find it strange that this girl would be my dream girl at all if i'm just meant to give her up in the end. I also wonder if this dream means that this is my destiny, to end up "alone" and to be an onlooker of a relationship between my best friend and the girl i love. This is what i decided was best for me many times but i always thought that it would be too painful for me and i would once again chase her or someone else. I didn't think it would be possible for me to be happy like this. But this feeling is so great i wouldn't really mind if this dream came true and i never got to be with my dream girl. Friendship over Love is my moto now anyways. This dream has me confused about many things but its not a bad feeling. I probly shouldn't call it confusion but wonder.