Dream: End of the World V

It seems as if the whole of this dream was one scene.  That seems impossible but I can’t recall any glimpses of any other scenes.  It starts out with me with my parents in an urban area.  I was on a bike and they were walking.  It was night and the streets were lit by those peach colored street-lights.  I believe that persecution had begun and my parents were arranging for me to escape into the woods.  I think we were in New York.  Police were literally everywhere.  We were always hiding, going from place to place; I don’t know exactly what my parents were doing.  Eventually they sent me off and I ran to the woods; I had at some point gotten rid of the bike, I don’t know how.  On the way to the forest, I had to escape the police who were now chasing me.  A number of them came in contact with me and were rewarded quite severely.  I was quite brutal in this dream.  The next thing I remember is moving through the forest with other fugitives while being tracked still by the police.  I don’t remember how I came across said fugitives or if they were also running for the same reason.  I had somehow become the leader of the pack and was feared by the others.  Along the way, I had a number of conflicts with the other fugitives.  The only one I remember is with two brothers.  They were, at one point, together walking with me but were somehow separated.  I had an argument with one of them concerning my actions toward the other.  Apparently I had killed him.  In anger he attacked me and I killed him.  Some time later I came across the other one which disturbed me seeing as I thought I had killed him before.  I told him what I did to his brother and he started weeping on the ground.  I don’t know why but I killed him too, slicing his skull open twice with a knife.  I was very evil in this dream which is extremely unsettling, especially because the setting of this dream is the time when God’s righteous followers are being persecuted.  I remember there being three females with me that I believe the others had regarded as Angels.  At the same time, they were feared as being just as cold-hearted as I was.  According to the other fugitives, I was the devil and they were my guardian angels which is extremely strange.  One of them was exceptionally beautiful; she was rather tall, had pretty short, curly red hair and was white.  Another one was of average height, skinny, Asian and had long black hair.  The last one was short, black and had long black hair in some wild hairstyle.  The white girl seemed closest to me while the other two were always out doing something mischievous.  I have no idea how or why, but we were at the end of my dream in a school bus.  I was driving and a handful of the fugitives were in there with us.  That’s the last thing I remember.  This is one of the most disturbing and twisted dreams I’ve had yet. 

Dream: End of the World IV

I usually don't post when I remember this little, but this one scene was interesting.  I do remember quite a bit of fragmented images from other scenes: driving down a large hill, something about Mr. Curtis, camping out somewhere, etc.  This scene started out in Mr. Curtis's house, however, it was very much not the same.  I had my own room and it was extra large.  My bed was huge as well.  Marc has over the house and I guess I let him take my bed.  Its was in the middle of the day.  I went in my room to get Dad's laptop (I don't know how I got it).  When I turned it on, Dad's programs were still open; I get the feeling that I stole it.  While I was on the computer, for some reason I went outside onto the balcony.  From the balcony, you could see much of the city.  The house was right in the middle of the city.  There were warehouses, stores and interestingly enough, I think there was a military base.  As I was outside, about five spaceships descended the sky.  They were shaped like an elongated hemisphere with the flat end to the bottom.  There were around fifty long cylinders arrayed around the bottom of the ships; they appeared to be weapons.  In the spot were they initially descended, there were what looked like clouds, only they looked honeycombed, like the effect the HAARP has on clouds.  I called for the others to come look and found that Nat and someone else were already outside on the ground watching.  A couple of the ships flew overhead while one remained in front the house.  As it hovered there, the two sides of the ship unfolded to form wings and the array of guns split into three: one for each wing and one for the center.  The ship now resembled a fat fighter jet with a claw-like appendage coming out the bottom.  The claw was being charged or something; it seemed as though it was going to fire.  As it did that, I remembered a dream I had had earlier in the dream (yes I had a dream in a dream), where a spaceship shot the earth and the ground under it for many miles became desolate, like a desert.  As I watched, I thought to myself, "We're going to die now. So this is how it happen."  I thought this but was too impressed at the awesome looking ship to be sad or scared.  The ship flew around for a while, sometimes coming so close to the ground, we thought it would land.  It never fired.  I don't know how the scene ended, but there were other scenes after that one that I don't remember.

Dream: Helpless (shorter version)

The first scene I remember was walking down the side of a dirt road.  While we were walking, for some reason I broke one of the trees we walked passed.  Kayanna said something about a good smell coming from the tree.  I saw a cloud of yellow, pollen looking things coming out of the tree and it was giving off an amazingly good smell.  The cloud rose up high above the road and then fell down in streaks.  Then, at the tops of the streaks, mushroom-like formations appeared.  They started to look more like jellyfish after a while.  Apparently this was a cause for alarm and we ran back down the road.  

When we got back to the building, people were laying things down on the ground for construction I think.  I remember we were preparing for someone to come, I think someone was coming to attack us.  I was supposed to grind the edges of some fences to a point.  When I walked in, nobody was working and when I asked why, Brother Steven said something about having to wait for someone to come back with supplies.  When he asked me if I had finished the fences I told him yes even though I hadn't.  He asked me which fences.  I told him the first fences.  He asked if I meant the inside ones and I said yeah. 

The next thing I remember is sitting in a room with some people who, I think, went to Plantation.  After sitting there a while, Angel waked in from the kitchen.  She was looking at something on the table, bent over in front of me when some girl jumped on her back.  She had her arms around Angel and as Angel struggled, they moved up and down her breasts and I was like this is sooo not kosher; please stop this.  They messed around for a while until she tore off Angel’s shirt and started grabbing her breasts.  I was trying very hard to control myself.  I was thinking I should get up to stop this; Angel was looking quite upset; but for some reason I just couldn’t bring myself to.  Soon the chick tore Angel’s bra and was holding her breasts, squeezing them together.  I was looking in all sorts of directions trying not to see it but I could not keep my eyes away.  At this point I was covering my eyes; I was getting pretty heated myself, angry with them for their foolishness and angry at myself for not doing anything about it.  When I opened my eyes, Angel’s arms were tied behind her back and there was nothing covering her breasts.  She started crying after that.  That killed me.  She called for her dad who came in and yelled at them.  KK and Angel left with their father and I looked at them so ashamed and helpless. 

The next thing I remember is kneeling down in front of the couch I was sitting at.  KK was sitting on the couch to me left.  Chad walked in and sat on the couch to the right of me.  He asked me why I was so upset.  I told him because of the Angel thing.  He was like that happens all the.  I said that’s how people get beat down.  He said that happens all the time too.  I was like it almost happened again.  Just as I said that, Angel walked in and sat down next to Kayanna.  Chad said, rather loudly, “You were about to beat those people down?”  I said, a little embarrassed, yeah.  Then he turned to Angel and KK and said, “Hey, Nugent was ‘bout to beat those people down.”  I was too embarrassed to look anybody in their eyes. 

Next, I was kneeling down in front of the opposite couch and Angel was sitting on that couch to my left.  Chad was standing on the couch in front of me and started fake preaching.  He said something along the lines of someone liking someone else and kneeling at her feet..  He then said something about how he hates it when they never tell that person that they like them.  I was already feeling very shameful so I guess I figured I could at least not be a punk and finally come clean.  When I opened my mouth to speak, however, she got up and walked out the room.  I felt so worthless.  

Dream: Hepless

The first scene I remember was Nat KK, possibly Jay, and I walking down the side of a dirt road.  There were dense woods on both side and a few trees right on the side of the road where we walked.  I actually remember a few bits and pieces of the scene before this one so I know where we were before this one.  We were with D4C I believe.  I remember me being upset because Brian showed me up on the guitar.  The building we were in looked like an auditorium and was extra dark.  Anyways, while we were walking, for some reason I broke one of the trees we walked passed.  I think I was angry or something.  Kayanna, seeming upset, asked me why I did that.  I can't remember my response, but then she said something about a good smell coming from the tree.  I saw a cloud of yellow, pollen looking things coming out of the tree and it was giving off an amazingly good smell.  The cloud rose up high above the road and then fell down in streaks.  It looked pretty interesting.  Then, at the tops of the streaks, mushroom-like formations appeared.  They started to look more like jellyfish after a while.  Apparently this was a cause for alarm and we ran back down the road.  Before we did, the sky turned dark with rainclouds. 

When we got back to the building, it was nighttime and people were laying things down on the ground for construction I think.  I remember we were preparing for someone to come, I think someone was coming to attack us.  I was supposed to grind the edges of some fences to a point.  I believe I started doing that by myself before going inside.  When I walked in, nobody was working and when I asked why, Brother Steven said something about having to wait for someone to come back with supplies.  Seeing everyone not working made me lazy, so when he asked me if I had finished the fences I told him yes even though I hadn't.  He asked me which fences; I guess he didn't believe me.  I told him the first fences.  He asked if I meant the inside ones and I said yeah.  I wasn't doing very well lying, I kept stumbling on words, but for some reason they bought it. 

The next thing I remember is being in a room with some people who, I think, went to Plantation.  I don’t think I know any of them.  The room was square with either white or really light cream colored was.  There were three white couches, arranged in a U-shape in the center with a small white table inside.  The couches were to the north east and south of the table and there was a TV on the west wall; I don’t think it was ever on.  There was a door of the west side of the south and north walls.  I think the door to the north went to a kitchen.  After sitting there a while, Angel waked in from the kitchen.  She was wearing a gold bra covered by a blue, extra loose-knit sweater and some jean shorts and for some reason, her skin was painted blue.  She was looking very sexy; I had to look away.  She was looking at something on the table, bent over in front of me when some girl who looked like Kamila jumped on her back.  She had her arms around Angel and as Angel struggled, they moved up and down her breasts and I was like this is sooo not kosher; please stop this.  They messed around for a while until the Kamila looking chick tore off Angel’s sweater and started grabbing her breasts.  I was trying very hard to control myself, hoping she would stop soon.  At this point, some of the guys started joining in and I was like, what the hell is wrong with these people.  I was thinking I should get up to stop this; Angel was looking quite upset; but for some reason I just couldn’t bring myself to (and the reason was not because I wanted to see more if you’re wondering).  Soon the chick tore Angel’s bra and was holding her breasts, squeezing them together.  KK was there trying to stop them now.  I was looking in all sorts of directions trying not to see it but I could not keep my eyes away.  Some other chick said something about Angel’s breasts looking like a booty because she had cleavage.  At this point I was covering my eyes; I was getting pretty heated myself, angry with them for their foolishness and angry at myself for not doing anything about it.  When I opened my eyes, Angel’s arms were tied behind her back and there was nothing covering her breasts (and for some reason, her nipples were painted gold).  I was frozen starring for a short while, then I put my hand right back in front of my eyes.  She started crying after that.  That killed me; I felt like dying.  She called for her dad who came in and yelled at them.  KK and Angel left with their father and I looked at them so ashamed and helpless. 

I sat there for a while wanting to kill something.  The next thing I remember is kneeling down in front of the couch I was sitting at.  KK was sitting on the couch to me left.  Chad walked in and sat on the couch to the right of me.  He asked me why I was so upset.  I told him because of the Angel thing.  He was like that happens all the time and I was like what the hell.  He said yeah.  I said that’s how people get beat down.  He said that happens all the time too.  I was like it almost happened again.  Just as I said that, Angel walked in and sat down next to Kayanna.  Chad said, rather loudly, “You were about to beat those people down?”  I said, a little embarrassed, yeah.  Then he turned to Angel and KK and said, “Hey, Nugent was ‘bout to beat those people down.”  I was too embarrassed to look anybody in their eyes. 

Next, I was kneeling down in front of the opposite couch and Angel was sitting on that couch to my left.  I find it interesting that all the time that I felt ashamed of myself, I never again sat on the couch but knelt on the floor.  Chad was standing on the couch in front of me and started fake preaching.  He said something along the lines of someone liking someone else and kneeling at her feet.  I was like what the f***, Chad.  He then said something about how he hates it when they never tell that person that they like them.  I was already feeling very shameful so I guess I figured I could at least not be a punk and finally come clean.  When I opened my mouth to speak, however, she got up and walked out the room.  I felt so worthless. 

This was probably my most depressing dream of all time.  This seems to be the theme of my dreams lately: trying to be with her and failing miserably.