December 28, 2009
I can't remember a lot of the dream, all I remember is bits and pieces, mostly relating to my interaction with a girl(that will remain nameless). My first memories of the dream are rather vague but I recall most of my friends from both eliathah and plantation being there though I don't know what the occasion was. I specifically remember Bryan, Chad and Andrew being there and I also remember seeing Breana, Brittney and Alethea; I can't remember all the others but I know there was much more. I also remember that The Girl was not there though I don't recall whether her boyfriend was there. While I don't know where we started out, I do remember that we never stayed in the same place for too long and much of my memories are of us in a car. And I don't recall where we were when the first significant event I remember occured. That event was that I got a text from The Girl. I'm not exactly sure what it said, I initially thought that it said she loved me but on recallection I don't think it fits with what happened later in the dreams, but I'm sure it had something to do with us hooking up. That suprised me because The Girl was in the dream and is in real life going out with one of my friends. That text made me feel suprisingly good. I decided to take that opportunity regardless of her boyfriend, which I find strange. I know I wud never do something like that in reality. I don't know what prevented me or if I just chose to wait but I don't recall replying for a while. When I did start texting back, she didn't reply to me. I sent her a bunch of texts telling her I really liked her an junk. I felt like I needed to call her so I did, although I was terrified of actually speaking to her cuz I thought I'd screw myself, but I thought I'd just try anyways. She didn't pick up though. I thought then that I somehow slipped up so I put the whole thing out of mind. Then some time later she called me back. I was immediately horrified, but when I picked up, I kept my cool suprisingly. She still wanted me and ofcourse I wanted her. I don't remember what the agreement was though. She was still going out with her boyfriend and apparently another guy as well. And through this whole thing, I never once felt ashamed or guilty that I was messing around with my friends girl and I wasn't upset that I was just one of The Girl's three boys. That wud definately not happen in reality. I remember us planning on going somewhere together. It wasn't a date or anything cuz other people wud be there and we had to keep it a secret, etc. I remember after she called me, there was a time when I was in my room getting ready, for wherever we were going and I was so happy that my luck was changing. There were some other insignificant details in the rest of the dream I remember like me joking around with Alethea calling her bi and her chasing me. There was also some game that we played. It seemed to be so important to me but I don't remember why and I don't remember the game. But anyways, after Alethea chased me out of the fellowship hall(we were at plantation church at that point), I went outside and and there was Bryan waiting to drive me to wherever we were planning on going(I can't remember where). The Girl was there in the car. I think I woke up before I even got in the car though.
This dream, while I was in it, made me feel almost as good as the other dream I had with her but when I woke up I was just confused. It felt so good to actually be "going out" with her and my waking mind actually yearned to go back in that dream, though I now don't think so fondly of it. I admit that I do like That Girl, I don't like her that much. I definately don't like her enough to be just one of her three bitches and I wudn't be messing around with my friend's girl like that. But wat I had in the dream is still more than I have in reality. But I don't understand why I dream about this girl so often. She's not the girl that I really like, but like I said, it prolly doesn't mean that much. But either way this dream has me feeling a little lonely. Even the little bitch version of me gets more action than me but its whatever.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Dream: My Trip to the Beach
December 08, 2009
My dream started out at some campsite. I was jus walkn around then i came up to this big building and for some reason my dad was there by the entrance. Dad told me to find some room and deliver something before he got there. When I started looking for the room, I noticed it was a skool, the tall white one i always see in my dreams. When I was climbing the last set of stairs, i saw dad already in the room, which i found strange because i got up there freaking fast. I delivered the bag and then jus chilled out in the room and then i got a phone call from some guy, i knew him but i dont remember who it was. he was asking me where the meeting was and then i remembered i had to go to that meeting soon. i said i didnt know but i would find out. then i looked out the door and realized that somehow we were now nolonger in the skool but in some dirty white one-story building, back at the campsite. i went outside and grabbed a bike, i think it was mine i don know, and was about to go but Nat told me that dad was going to take us to the meeting. I said i know but im jus going to see where it is to tell my friend.
After riding for a while, I came to some small lake. at the lake i found some chick, i think it was C.C. from code geass. she dove in the lake and i dove in too. We were jus swiming around in the lake, i was chasing her in the water. Every now and then she would let me catch her and then slip away and my hands would glide down her body. Eventually, we came to the edge of the lake where there was a square tunnel, like a sewer. Actually i think it was a tunnel disguised as a sewer. We went in and she showed me something. i think she showed me that something illegal was happening in there but i have absolutely no memory of what i saw in the tunnel. we came out and were sitting at the edge of the lake by the tunnel for a while talking bout i cant remember wat and then she went back in and told me to follow. i tried to follow but for some reason there was a current right above the tunnel pushing me back away from the tunnel. i got past it but once i did, i had no more breath and had to come back up. that hapened like four times and she didnt notice and was already far down the tunnel. i went back out the water and was jus gonna wait till she came back. then some guy came with some tiles or something and was covering up the entrance of the tunnel. i knew him, i think i was working with him and i told him to stop and that the people we were working for were doing something bad in the tunnel. he said it wasnt a tunnel it was an old sewer but i showed him the tunnel.
Then strangely enough, a skool bus showed up and we both got on. i took a seat near the back. Then some girl from Piper High came up to me. Then suddenly the girl turned into Kanika and we were alone on a beach. i was lying down and then she sat down in front of me and layed her head on my chest. I put my arm over here and my hand was right under her breast. I had no bad intentions watsoever but i was worried i was gonna get a slap anyways but she jus held my hand so i put my other arm over her too. we jus chilled there for bout a minute then she raised her hands like she was gonna get up so i moved my hands. once she got up Kanika turned back into the girl from Piper and the sand turned back into a bus bench and the bus ceiling replaced the sky and all the other people on the bus appeared. Apparently the bus arrived at the skool and people were geting off. The girl was already at the front and i was still sitting. I got up and left through a side door like the city busses have, that wasnt there before.
i started walking to the skool, it was not the same skool as before, and met up with Joan. She grabbed my hand and took me in the opposite direction. we were talking, holding hands, then Travis showed up, i think he and Joan were going out. he split us up and held both of our hands, which really weirded me out but i was like i'll endure this homoness for Joan cuz she was still talking to me, and saying pretty dirty things. While we were walking, the other girl came up and jokingly asked me if i was cheating on her. I played along and started fake stuttering an junk. we ended up right by the bus again and the girl grabbed my hand and Joan's hand. we talked for a while then suddenly i notice that theres this other nigga between me and the girl holding my hand. I never noticed him joining the circle and now i'm really weirded out bout tha fact that i'm holdn 2 niggas' hands so i let go of both of them. then the nigga takes out a syringe and says he's commiting suicide and injects himself with wat he says is poison. i fully believe him that its poison but i was completely calm and nonchalant bout tha fact that someone was commiting suicide next to me, which i find quite strange. then the nigga fakes like hes gonna stab me with the syringe. i felt no fear, just a extreme feeling of uneasiness whenever the syringe was close to me, like i was disgusted by it. i felt chills going up my spine and i felt like throwing up. but seeing as i knew he was jus fak'n i didn't say or do anything. then for comical purposes only i dipped out on em, jus started running as fast as i kud and he started chasing me. and i must say this part of the dream is quite homo. i eventually stop running and then again for comical purposes start chasing him and he runs from me. i catch up to him and we start play fighting. then thankfully a text message woke me up from that homoness. once i woke up though, all i kud remember was me holding Kanika. It was a really gud feeling.
My dream started out at some campsite. I was jus walkn around then i came up to this big building and for some reason my dad was there by the entrance. Dad told me to find some room and deliver something before he got there. When I started looking for the room, I noticed it was a skool, the tall white one i always see in my dreams. When I was climbing the last set of stairs, i saw dad already in the room, which i found strange because i got up there freaking fast. I delivered the bag and then jus chilled out in the room and then i got a phone call from some guy, i knew him but i dont remember who it was. he was asking me where the meeting was and then i remembered i had to go to that meeting soon. i said i didnt know but i would find out. then i looked out the door and realized that somehow we were now nolonger in the skool but in some dirty white one-story building, back at the campsite. i went outside and grabbed a bike, i think it was mine i don know, and was about to go but Nat told me that dad was going to take us to the meeting. I said i know but im jus going to see where it is to tell my friend.
After riding for a while, I came to some small lake. at the lake i found some chick, i think it was C.C. from code geass. she dove in the lake and i dove in too. We were jus swiming around in the lake, i was chasing her in the water. Every now and then she would let me catch her and then slip away and my hands would glide down her body. Eventually, we came to the edge of the lake where there was a square tunnel, like a sewer. Actually i think it was a tunnel disguised as a sewer. We went in and she showed me something. i think she showed me that something illegal was happening in there but i have absolutely no memory of what i saw in the tunnel. we came out and were sitting at the edge of the lake by the tunnel for a while talking bout i cant remember wat and then she went back in and told me to follow. i tried to follow but for some reason there was a current right above the tunnel pushing me back away from the tunnel. i got past it but once i did, i had no more breath and had to come back up. that hapened like four times and she didnt notice and was already far down the tunnel. i went back out the water and was jus gonna wait till she came back. then some guy came with some tiles or something and was covering up the entrance of the tunnel. i knew him, i think i was working with him and i told him to stop and that the people we were working for were doing something bad in the tunnel. he said it wasnt a tunnel it was an old sewer but i showed him the tunnel.
Then strangely enough, a skool bus showed up and we both got on. i took a seat near the back. Then some girl from Piper High came up to me. Then suddenly the girl turned into Kanika and we were alone on a beach. i was lying down and then she sat down in front of me and layed her head on my chest. I put my arm over here and my hand was right under her breast. I had no bad intentions watsoever but i was worried i was gonna get a slap anyways but she jus held my hand so i put my other arm over her too. we jus chilled there for bout a minute then she raised her hands like she was gonna get up so i moved my hands. once she got up Kanika turned back into the girl from Piper and the sand turned back into a bus bench and the bus ceiling replaced the sky and all the other people on the bus appeared. Apparently the bus arrived at the skool and people were geting off. The girl was already at the front and i was still sitting. I got up and left through a side door like the city busses have, that wasnt there before.
i started walking to the skool, it was not the same skool as before, and met up with Joan. She grabbed my hand and took me in the opposite direction. we were talking, holding hands, then Travis showed up, i think he and Joan were going out. he split us up and held both of our hands, which really weirded me out but i was like i'll endure this homoness for Joan cuz she was still talking to me, and saying pretty dirty things. While we were walking, the other girl came up and jokingly asked me if i was cheating on her. I played along and started fake stuttering an junk. we ended up right by the bus again and the girl grabbed my hand and Joan's hand. we talked for a while then suddenly i notice that theres this other nigga between me and the girl holding my hand. I never noticed him joining the circle and now i'm really weirded out bout tha fact that i'm holdn 2 niggas' hands so i let go of both of them. then the nigga takes out a syringe and says he's commiting suicide and injects himself with wat he says is poison. i fully believe him that its poison but i was completely calm and nonchalant bout tha fact that someone was commiting suicide next to me, which i find quite strange. then the nigga fakes like hes gonna stab me with the syringe. i felt no fear, just a extreme feeling of uneasiness whenever the syringe was close to me, like i was disgusted by it. i felt chills going up my spine and i felt like throwing up. but seeing as i knew he was jus fak'n i didn't say or do anything. then for comical purposes only i dipped out on em, jus started running as fast as i kud and he started chasing me. and i must say this part of the dream is quite homo. i eventually stop running and then again for comical purposes start chasing him and he runs from me. i catch up to him and we start play fighting. then thankfully a text message woke me up from that homoness. once i woke up though, all i kud remember was me holding Kanika. It was a really gud feeling.
Dream: My Best Friend
November 02, 2009
I saw my dream girl again last night. But this this time was different from the others. Just like other times we were just messing around the whole time. This time though there was a rapist or something out to get her and we were hiding in some building. In the dream the danger seemed pretty serious but we weren't afraid, we were just happy to be together. And by together i don't mean going out cuase interestingly enough later in the dream, i and someone who turned out to be my best friend were upstairs setting something up (i think it was some kind of trap) and while i was talking to him i realized for the first time in the dream that my dream girl and my best friend were going out. And as i realized this i felt not an ounce of jealousy or hate or sadness, it didn't change anything at all. All i felt was suprise and when we went downstairs, we did what we were doing before, just messing around and having fun, the three of us. As usual, i can't remember my dream girl's face or name. It's a little different with my best friend though. This is the first time i've seen him in a dream and of course he too is nameless and faceless. But unlike my dream girl, it's not that i can't remember his face, i just see a blur. With my dream girl, i keep getting hints of her facial features, it feels like i know it and am so close to remembering it. But with my best friend, i don't have any clue to his appearance. Its like i never knew it. In fact i think even in the dream, i only saw a blur. But as i say that i remember thinking in the dream that he looked just like me. The first time i saw him, i thought i was seeing myself because in many of my dreams, i see the dream not from my own eyes but as an onlooker and i see my body as if i am someone else. So i thought that my best friend was me, and i now recall that he was my height and build, but later realized that it was a different person. Also, my dream girl seems so familiar to me. i actually think that i know her in real life. But my best friend, i don't believe i know anybody that fits his description. He has my build and is as tall as me but he seem to be either white or very light-skinned. I don't have any close friends that fit that description. But i have come to think that unlike my dream girl, who i think is an actual person in real life, my best friend just represents the similarities between me and many of my close friends. In fact, this dream reminds me of my situation with my newest best friend and the girl i liked. It also happened with Natasha and Ricardo and Navin and Gaelle. But with all those relationships, i felt left out and alone, unlike my feelings in this dream. In this dream, i felt so good, it was the best feeling i've ever felt in my life. And also, i now recall that my best friend reminds me most of my best friend Nigel, which is strange becaues Nigel and Natasha are ferternal twins and there wasn't any other girl i like when i was with Nigel that he liked too. And I also find it very strange that my dream girl, that i've been searching for ever since the first time i saw her, that i can so easily give her up and not feel any regret. I also find it strange that this girl would be my dream girl at all if i'm just meant to give her up in the end. I also wonder if this dream means that this is my destiny, to end up "alone" and to be an onlooker of a relationship between my best friend and the girl i love. This is what i decided was best for me many times but i always thought that it would be too painful for me and i would once again chase her or someone else. I didn't think it would be possible for me to be happy like this. But this feeling is so great i wouldn't really mind if this dream came true and i never got to be with my dream girl. Friendship over Love is my moto now anyways. This dream has me confused about many things but its not a bad feeling. I probly shouldn't call it confusion but wonder.
I saw my dream girl again last night. But this this time was different from the others. Just like other times we were just messing around the whole time. This time though there was a rapist or something out to get her and we were hiding in some building. In the dream the danger seemed pretty serious but we weren't afraid, we were just happy to be together. And by together i don't mean going out cuase interestingly enough later in the dream, i and someone who turned out to be my best friend were upstairs setting something up (i think it was some kind of trap) and while i was talking to him i realized for the first time in the dream that my dream girl and my best friend were going out. And as i realized this i felt not an ounce of jealousy or hate or sadness, it didn't change anything at all. All i felt was suprise and when we went downstairs, we did what we were doing before, just messing around and having fun, the three of us. As usual, i can't remember my dream girl's face or name. It's a little different with my best friend though. This is the first time i've seen him in a dream and of course he too is nameless and faceless. But unlike my dream girl, it's not that i can't remember his face, i just see a blur. With my dream girl, i keep getting hints of her facial features, it feels like i know it and am so close to remembering it. But with my best friend, i don't have any clue to his appearance. Its like i never knew it. In fact i think even in the dream, i only saw a blur. But as i say that i remember thinking in the dream that he looked just like me. The first time i saw him, i thought i was seeing myself because in many of my dreams, i see the dream not from my own eyes but as an onlooker and i see my body as if i am someone else. So i thought that my best friend was me, and i now recall that he was my height and build, but later realized that it was a different person. Also, my dream girl seems so familiar to me. i actually think that i know her in real life. But my best friend, i don't believe i know anybody that fits his description. He has my build and is as tall as me but he seem to be either white or very light-skinned. I don't have any close friends that fit that description. But i have come to think that unlike my dream girl, who i think is an actual person in real life, my best friend just represents the similarities between me and many of my close friends. In fact, this dream reminds me of my situation with my newest best friend and the girl i liked. It also happened with Natasha and Ricardo and Navin and Gaelle. But with all those relationships, i felt left out and alone, unlike my feelings in this dream. In this dream, i felt so good, it was the best feeling i've ever felt in my life. And also, i now recall that my best friend reminds me most of my best friend Nigel, which is strange becaues Nigel and Natasha are ferternal twins and there wasn't any other girl i like when i was with Nigel that he liked too. And I also find it very strange that my dream girl, that i've been searching for ever since the first time i saw her, that i can so easily give her up and not feel any regret. I also find it strange that this girl would be my dream girl at all if i'm just meant to give her up in the end. I also wonder if this dream means that this is my destiny, to end up "alone" and to be an onlooker of a relationship between my best friend and the girl i love. This is what i decided was best for me many times but i always thought that it would be too painful for me and i would once again chase her or someone else. I didn't think it would be possible for me to be happy like this. But this feeling is so great i wouldn't really mind if this dream came true and i never got to be with my dream girl. Friendship over Love is my moto now anyways. This dream has me confused about many things but its not a bad feeling. I probly shouldn't call it confusion but wonder.
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